/The take's over.

Oooohhkayyy.
Before you read....
WARNING, THIS IS NOT FOR THE WEAK HEART. CONTENTS ARE HIGHLY DISTURBING.
(I shall not be held for any death.)
So yesterday, I had training.
Then went home by bus.
Somehow, I felt like throwing up again.. ):
I took 265, and totally like omg, I felt damn dizzy and felt like puking...
Then I went to amk hub to take bus.
But I was really scared I'll throw up on the bus.
So I went to the washroom first, and I really threw up there ):
So then, I thought I was fine..
When the bus came, I got on.
Midway, I felt like I really need to throw up again.
I tried to hold it in...
I didn't want to throw up on the bus and dirty it ):
And definitely not in front of like, the whole bus -.-
So I ran off the bus and all my contents came out right when I ran off the bus and leaned off the pavement behind the bus-stop :/

I looked around, and realised it was 4 stops more to my house...
So I decided I should just walk home, since I think bus will only make me feel worse...
So I walked home...
But I kinda more of vomitted-while-walking-home.
I walked for a while. Then I'd stop to throw up.
All the way till I reach home ):
Worse thing was I didn't have tissue D:
So.. Yeah...
And omg man, it came out of my nose too..
So I had no choice but to use my uhm, towel from training :/

Today... I slept and woke up with migraine again..
Ate breakfast, then I don't know why, but I felt really tired still...
So I fell asleep till 2pm, and woke up for lunch.
Went to dance competition preparation at 3.30pm.
Yet again, I felt really dizzy and was on the verge of feeling like vommting :/
THE WHOLE TIME TILL BEFORE OUR COMPETITION ITEM WAS UP ):
After our item, we went up to the audience to sit and watch the rest.
I'm not sure if it's just me or what, but the lights felt really glaring after a while, and I was damn dizzy.

So yeah anyway, we didn't win, haha. But oh wells.
It's ok then.
I think Me, Rebecca and Emily are doing solo dance competition next year (:

Ah well, I need to get to bed ):
I'm feeling really really dizzy again.
And before I throw up, I need to get some sleep...

(I swear I'm pregnant I tell you.. I will tell you when the baby's out. HAHAHAH)

rae.

/You won't be sorry.

Urghh, FAG.
I AM FREAKKIN HAVING MIGRAINE EVERY SINGLE DAY WITHOUT FAIL NOWADAYS.
What the heck is wrong with me D:
Well, I'm sorry if I can't help but eat double dosage of the medicine to get my migraine off.
I need to get my migraine off.
It's been killing me. Especially during training.
Well, I'm glad it kinda relaxed after double dosage.
Or else, I have no idea what to do...

Ok, I need to go back to:
1. Geography Graded assignment due wednesday
2. Social Studies Test on Friday
3. Physics SPA test tomorrow
4. 听写 on wenesday

rae.

/Can't stay forever.

Cool man.
Sooooo. Thursday.
Went to see the doctor.
So now I have like "MC", or like excuse from exercise till next tuesday.
Then studied with jamie. (She came to my house)
Went to tuition at night.

Friday, which is today.
Didn't go for training.
Cause like haha, idk, I'm not suppose to go for training anyway, like in case I'm gonna spread to the rest or something.
So I went straight the Chantel's house.
She invited, me, Addie, Letian, Mabel, Cabby and Gen to her younger brother's birthday party.
LT couldn't go cause she had tuition, Mabel couldn't go cause she had church stuff.
And Gen simply just don't wanna go cause, according to her, it's damn weird -.-
Then addie and cabby went later, after their cca.

So then, I went home with Chantel.
Hahhh, though I didn't go for training,
I got too tempted by the pool.
So me and Chantel went to swim.
Lol, ok not really swim much lo.
Like just laze around the pool and gossip gossip, bitch bitch. Lol.
Then it started raining.. ZZZZ.
So we went to eat lunch.
Which so happened that it stopped raining -.-
Then after lunch we went to swim again.
And this time, it rained AGAIN.
So we're like just whatever luh, and went to shower.
After showering, we came out, the sun was out again -.-
We're super jinxed man.

So then we went upstairs.
Was about to start watching Marley & Me when her mom wanted us to like go downstairs to get the BBQ pit ready.
Hahh, wowwww.
We had so much fun going up and down the building, from her house to the pit man.
First, we went to take the packets of ice.
After that, went up again to take basketball.
Then went down, then went up again to change slippers.
Then went down.
Went up to take those aluminium tray kinda thing, came down.
Then went up again to take soccer ball.
Wahlao, damn fun man -.-

Blabla, went to play basketball with Bay while waiting for Darren (her bro) to arrive.
OH OH OH! HAHA!
I swear her grandmother is damn cute!
HAHAH. She so cute la! Super blur. LOL.
And I'm damn proud of myself man, I actually spoke cantonese.
When I like, RARELY speak that.

Then the guests start coming.
Entertained the guests.
Darren came.
Then Ade & Cabby came.
Ate dinner, then went to play basketball again. Hahah.
Gosh, I'm so tired now man!
After the doctor said "no vigorous exercise till next tuesday"...
Hah, retarded yo!
We totally felt like jumping into the pool. But we can't, cause we need proper attire.
But yeah anyway, Evan's brother, Edwin is so freakkin adorable!
He's like P5 but he looks P3. LOL.
And I'm super sure he's like hyper active or something! Lol.
So yeah, we pretty much just ate, ate, ate, ate, basketball, basketball, basketball till like 10.45pm?
We to return the tables and chair.
Ade and Cab went home.
I went upstairs with Chantel to get my stuff and waited for my parents.
They came, then I went home.
Reached home at like 11.30pm.
Showered again, for the second time.
Haha. Today was kinda fun and tiring.
Thanks for the invite Chantel!
And Happy Birthday again Darren! :D

Tomorrow, Dental at 12.15pm.
Up! with Jamie tomorrow afternoon :D

rae.

/Not wishing no more.

Arghh. My headache is still as bad today.
I was "emo-ing" during training today.
And as usual, my juniors were like bugging me, asking me why I'm so "sian" today. Lol..
Ah well, thanks for the concern anyway.

Sigh, this sucks. I need to be back on medication.
I hate this.
First off, I think the whole medication thing is bullshit.
Sorry, but ok, though it kinda helps, but hello...
It may make my head feels heavy the next day, then I'd take another medication.
Then I'd need to pray that I won't get gastric from over relying on Diclofenac Sodium :/
So hey, I think I'd rather sacrafice some sleep time than over relying on DS.

In any case, I hate myself for having so much problems -.-
Like my sis said, if I don't have any problems, with the amount of medication I take, I'd go sick one day.

rae.

/Where we take the road,
(the road still goes on.)

Great, I survived today.
Lets see..
I woke up with a freakkin bad headache today, almost like a hangover...
My head was literally spinning.
I went to school, and then had a really really bad stomache for a long long time.
THE WHOLE MORNING.
I WANTED TO DIE...
And then early in the morning, I had to run to someone to do council duty.
Then I came back and then helped Peiyun do her early dismissal form because she had a really bad stomache and had to go back.
So I'm like (how bout me -.-)
But anyway, I didn't exactly wanna go home since it's not exactly something severe enough to make me go home and miss English Test today.
So I just stayed on being like a half zombie.
And then, I have no idea what it was, or why...
But then I started having this sharp pain near my stomach.
I'm not sure if it's gastric...
Happened before, but I still don't know what it is..
But I really couldn't walk at all.
And once I sat down, I couldn't stand up.
I don't know why.
I just couldn't lift my left leg.
The pain would be even more severe D:
It lasted all the way till like idk, 12pm?

And I didn't wanna go home because I know the pain would subside by the time I get home.
So I stayed and was really really quiet today and I was showing this face.
And my friends were like why are you so tired today, or why are you so sian.
Haha :/
Apparently, I was right, it kinda subside by about 12.30pm?
But my headache was still really bad..

But anyways, I screwed biology ):
So much for studying till 2am.
Ok actually, so much for cramming.
I got B4 ): (AND WAS LISTENING TO JI MENGDI COMPLAIN HER "LOW" MARKS. A1, WOMAN, A1. I GOT B4 -.-)

Ok great, E math test tomorrow and I totally didn't study at all.
Actually, I don't know how I can study for that test.
So... Yeah.
Ok, geography, physics, chemistry homework.
Shall do geography in school tomorrow.
My headache's still killing me...
Shall go to bed after I'm done with Physics SPA.

rae.

/I don't wanna fall for it now.

I'm really really really sorry.
I don't know what else to say.
But I really am.
Right now, I think this is for the best.
I can't do this.
Not right now.
Please don't take it the wrong way..
But please know that I've never regret ok?
I messed up, big time.

rae.

/HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!


Okayy, so today, I pretty much just rotted/wasted my day away again ):
I REALLY NEED TO FIND MY MOTIVATION BACK ):
Or I'm just really really really screwed...
Maybe I just need to find the reason why I've been like that these few days.
Or maybe I do know the reason, just that I refuse to acknowledge it..
Or I'm just gonna hope that this is just a side effect from my freakkin bloody affair which will pass within days.. ):
In any case, the point is, I can't continue being like this.
ARGHH, WAKE UP RACHEL.

So yeah, I wasted the whole morning of my life away, then came to jt's house.
Then I freakkin wanted to swim, but I couldn't...
SHIT LA.





Then after that we just went downstairs to take picure of them at the pool while they swam.
Which is why we got wet -.-











Then we went to playground to camwhore. Haha...
Then went to basketball court to play for a while.
Came upstairs, used the computer, wasted my life, used the comp, wasted my life, eat dinner, watched tv, then wasted my life...
Awesome right?
Sounds soooo interesting doesn't it.

Seriously, what is wrong with me nowadays?
Zzzzzz.

rae.

Note to self: Start studying and stop screwing you studies.

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/A route for escape.


Okayyy, National Day celebration in school today. Haha.
Wth, I got caught got skirt being too short -____-
Ok, but then again, about like 300 odd people got caught..
But yeahh, :/











Hmm, went home after that, apparently Joni had fever today.
So we didn't go library in the end since she's not in school.
Then went home, got stranded outside my house for very long.
Cause I didn't have the key and my maid was out somewhere....
Then went home debated with hy and got pissed -.-
Then went out of my house to go meet wuanting and hk.
Sat at the platform and wait for like idk 30min, for hk.
Mrt-ed, then bus-ed to kallang.
Didn't play tennis in the end?
Cause they had no intention of playing -.-
Joker man.

So then wuanting met us at kallang leisure after like idk, 1h+?
We practically just walked the whole place and sat at this ulu (seems to be) old-deserted-bus interchange.
Then saw wt walked here. Lol.So we went to eat lunch at pasta mania.
Then me and wuanting ate Yoguru.
I CAN TOTALLY PRONOUNCE THAT CAN. LOL.

Then shared cab back with hk cause he had to reach home early -___-
So that was my day man. Hahhh.

rae.

/Let it take you off your feet.

Today was wacky-tacky-zonker-goner-awesome-depressing.
I have succesfully completed 4 tests today without breaking a finger and also only ended up studying for only 1 test.
I had e-lit (write a lot), chinese yi lun wen (write a lot again), geography (and again) and physics tests today.
Out of which, I only managed to study like geography.
Awesome right?

Anyways, went for casting with Bay today (:
We were so excited-nervous-jumpy-happy about it. Hahaha.
So anyway, we like, met at Dhoby Ghaut and cab there.
And apparently got daylight-robbed by.
It was a freakkin short distance but we had to pay $8.40 just because of meter fare and because it's in town area -.-
But yeah anyway, casting was flat out hilarious. HAHAHA.
Bay smiles like she saw her crush. HAHAHA.
Retarded. Lol.
So yeah, I went first anyway.
I think I had to do it so many more times than her -.-
Heh, so yeah, daddy fetched us back.
Actually we went to Pavillion to see first.
Oh mann, you should totally see the night view there.
FREAKKIN PRETTY.
City's night view.
(Which apparenly cost 1.5million..)
Then sent Chantel home, and we went home too.

Apparently, I'm taking a break today.
I'm guily (or not) for not doing my math homework at all.
I haven't even touched it.
Oh wells.
I'm so darn tired ):
Gonna head to bed now.
Seeya :D
Haha, can't wait for tomorrow to end man!
Then I can have a long break till monday :D
Yeah babehhh.
And I'm going out with wt, hk and hy. Muahah.
Finally...
K, tah-tahhhh!

rae.

/Don't wanna miss a thing.

Oohhhhkay. I'm pretty sure my blog readers are like zilch now. Lol.
Eh I've been damn guai can.
I haven't been on the computer like since idk, monday?
Damn, I've been really really really busy though.
Anyways, Biology test on thursday totally killed me.
And then I went to play tennis on thursday.
Apparently, I had a WONDERFUL time on my journey there man. Lol.
First I took 159 there, not really knowing that there's something called 159 from across the road -.-
So I just went on it and went all the way to sengkang bus interechange...
I'm like wth man.
Didn't occur to me that I'm suppose to take the bus from opposite..
Then I had to take mrt from there to serangoon mrt.
From there, switch to circle line, to lorong chuan.
Apparently, there was some problem with the mrt or smth.
So we got stuck there for like idk, 5-10min -.-
Waste my time.
So I ended up starting tennis at 5pm when we're suppose to play at 4pm..
Blah.

Friday,
Oh wow, we did jump circuit, gym, 100m, 200m, 300m.
Almosts killed me.
And I was already haveing major muscleache can.
Wahlao. Accumulated from tuesday.
Build up of lactic acids
Hah, I studied my bio k.

Haha, so yeah then went home. Dinner. Slept.
Woke up at 4am to go for Osim Triathlon CIP.
Hahaha.
Actually, I wasn't sure what I was gonna expect from there.
But yeah, me and Chantel pretty much just rotted our 2h away.
She seriously like rushed out of her house for NOTHING.
LOL, thinking how she's so darn late.
Anyways, so she claims that James hate us for the "nice" distribution of location/people to us. Lol.
Ok la, it wasn't that bad.
So we pretty much just be traffic lights for 6 whole hours.
Got our 20bucks (well, Chantel's 25bucks -.-), got our bags and left.
Dad sent her back, I went home, slept.
Omg, you have no idea how tired I was.
So then, dinner, then had tuition from idk, 9pm? Till 12am.
Wow.

rae.