/Nothing more to it;(that's that)Ok, so I scewed up. Yet again.
My one and only last chance.
What is wrong with me?
I don't understand why I cannot do it when it comes to competitions.
So Nationals came and I screwed up. Again.
MAJORLY.
Ask me to do it again, I can do it 10 times better.
SERIOUSLY!
With the distance I do during training, about 4.7m, I can easily get top 5.
WTFFF!!!
I hate myself.
Can you believe it?
I lost. When the competition hasn't even begin.
Tschh, how pathetic can I get?
And I'm really sorry, to all the jumpers, to my school and to miss chan.
I disappointed everyone.
And I know I deserve to die.
I'm really really really really sorry.
I wish I could do something to make up for it.
But I don't think anything I do will help..
Right now, I just need to work on getting over it.
Tell myself, its no use dwelling over it.
Because nothing is ever gonna change anyway.
There should be only 1 thing in my mind now, and 1 thing only.
DO NOT screw your O levels.
I think I'll really go kill myself if I screw my Os..
I NEED MY FRIGGIN 6 POINTS.
rae.
- At times, we all wish we could turn back time