through the backdoor.

/The truth.

2010-12-23T22:38:00.002+08:00

Honestly, it's definitely true that I wasn't thinking straight. So it's actually my fault that all these happened, and that she got scolded too for it.

Sighhh, bad thing about all of it is that, I always seem like the crazy/stupid/insane/bratty/spoilt/inconsiderate/rebellious one. And then I'll get a major lecture/scolding/lashing for that.

Good thing, however, is that the scolding kinda keeps me out of trouble which I didn't really see it coming. And I actually learn before I'll fall and make a total mess.

But I really hate that part about getting her a huge scolding unnecessarily. And then I'll sour their relationship.

God, I think I'm really stupid. Why was I even born?

/Just a little patience.

2010-06-27T01:08:00.005+08:00

/Just a little patience.

(Chemistry.)
1. Alcohol worksheet
2. Carboxylic acid worksheet
~~3. Macromolecules worksheet~~

(Physics.)
4. Physics worksheet 19
5. Physics worksheet 20
6. Physics worksheet 21

(Biology)
~~7. Ecology edulearn~~
8. Ecology worksheet C
9. Ecology worksheet D
10. Biology O levels SPA on T3W1
11. Reproduction in plants worksheet
12. Transport in humans notes

(E-lit. - test)
13. Essay 1 (SN)
14. Essay 2 (SN)
15. Essay 3 (Toa Payoh)
16. Essay 4 (Cat high)

(Amath.)
~~17. CT practice paper~~
~~18. Longman chapter 9~~
~~19. Longman chapter 10~~
~~20. Tuition practice paper~~
21. Differentiation & ~~Integration~~ test!

(Geography.)
~~22. Coasts notes~~
23. Plate tectonics notes
24. Workbook page 101 and 94 question c
25. Geography of food + map reading test!
~~- GEOGRAPHY OF FOOD NOTES!~~

(Social studies.)
26. Venice and Managing of International Relationship test!
- VENICE NOTES!

(EMath.)
~~27. EM TYS Chapter 1-12~~
~~28. EM TYS Chapter 13-24~~
29. EM TYS finish entire book
~~30. EM Revision test!~~

(English.)
~~31. Comprehension 9~~
~~32. Comprehension 10~~
33. Comprehension 11
34. Comprehension 12

OMG D:

rae.

-I will not stay on the ground.

/Through the backdoor.

2010-06-26T02:03:00.001+08:00

/Through the backdoor.

You just couldn't see me from my side.

rae.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

2010-06-18T01:00:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYY!

16th june - Ryan Ho!
17th june - ADE! :D
18th june - FUKAI :D & Monica Aulia :)

Happy 16th to Ryan, Adeline and Fukai :)
And happy 8th to Monica!
Ade and Fukai, you guys have been a great part of my life.
Friends for eternity :)

Love you guys always ;D

rae.

/Decided it's forever

2010-06-18T00:33:00.004+08:00

/Decided it's forever

):
What was I thinking?
Can't believe I overlooked the time ):
Sigh.

- The rest should have been like, whatever.

rae.

/The tremor of hope.

2010-06-16T01:05:00.002+08:00

/The tremor of hope.

Today was Karate kid day <3
AHHHH :D
Super nice movie. Tehhhh.
Finally man, I FINALLY watched it..

Ok tomorrow will be dedicated to homework/study, and so will the day after tmr, and the day after, and the day after, and the day after, and the day after.....

rae.

/Felt it for so long, (but it's always the what-if's)

2010-06-13T17:40:00.004+08:00

/Felt it for so long,
(but it's always the what-if's)

Today is dedicated to homework, and waiting by the phone.
Sighhhh ):
RAWR.

- Indecisive and can't decide

rae.

/Everybody's changing (and I don't feel the same)

2010-04-02T11:19:00.004+08:00

/Nothing more to it;
(that's that)

Ok, so I scewed up. Yet again.
My one and only last chance.
What is wrong with me?
I don't understand why I cannot do it when it comes to competitions.
So Nationals came and I screwed up. Again.
MAJORLY.
Ask me to do it again, I can do it 10 times better.
SERIOUSLY!
With the distance I do during training, about 4.7m, I can easily get top 5.
WTFFF!!!
I hate myself.
Can you believe it?
I lost. When the competition hasn't even begin.
Tschh, how pathetic can I get?

And I'm really sorry, to all the jumpers, to my school and to miss chan.
I disappointed everyone.
And I know I deserve to die.
I'm really really really really sorry.
I wish I could do something to make up for it.
But I don't think anything I do will help..

Right now, I just need to work on getting over it.
Tell myself, its no use dwelling over it.
Because nothing is ever gonna change anyway.

There should be only 1 thing in my mind now, and 1 thing only.
DO NOT screw your O levels.
I think I'll really go kill myself if I screw my Os..
I NEED MY FRIGGIN 6 POINTS.

rae.

- At times, we all wish we could turn back time

/Last shot.

2010-03-05T22:01:00.003+08:00

/Last shot.

I know I shouldn't think that way.
But I can't help but think I'm fighting a losing battle.
I don't wanna feel that way, but I can't shake off the feeling of losing all hope.
Someone, wake me from this bad dream?
Or maybe give me a tug, shake me to my sense.

Who's gonna give me some motivation and belief in myself?
It's so hard, I don't know if I can cross this hurdle.

rae.

- Everybody needs an inspiration.
Everybody needs a soul.

/If today was a fairytale. (I wouldn't still be in misery)

2010-02-05T19:35:00.003+08:00

/If today was a fairytale.
(I wouldn't still be in misery)

Sighh, I'm not exactly looking forward to tomorrow.
Neither am I looking forward to tomorrow's long jump ._.

Where the hell is my motivation!
ARGHHH.
I have totally no motivation at all nowadays.
In jumps, in studies, in whatever.

I guess I have to set aside the rest and just concentrate.
(But then again, how should I do that?)

Apparently, weird enough, I was actually acting like my usual self of how I was back in sec 1/2 today.
Weird, cause I'm no longer like that ):
I don't know why, but I prefer being anti-social nowadays.
Or maybe I'm just too tired to show any emotions/join in any convos ):

TO-DO-LIST
1. Katrina Summary
2. Study for Binomial and geogmetrical proof test
3. Social studies mind-map
4. Biology worksheet
5. Physics worksheet 4 & 5
6. Chemistry; All MCQ of worksheet
7. STUDY FOR GEOGRAPHY TEST (wednesday)

-Why'd you run away? Run away, with all my secrets.

rae.

/Break the one inside.

2010-02-04T22:56:00.003+08:00

/Break the one inside.

Are you taking my breath away?
Or are you suffocating me?

Honestly, I think me and socializing don't go together.
I really think I'm better off being anti-social.

rae.

/This silence isn't too bad; (until I look at my hand and feel sad)

2010-02-03T23:18:00.004+08:00

/This silence isn't too bad;
(until I look at my hand and feel sad)

Hah, dead much?
I no longer have the time/interest/energy to blog.
My blog is so friggin dead.

Yeah well anyways, screw.
I mean like, everything.
Why?
Read this

This week's schedule:
Monday - School till 2.20pm
Training from 3.45pm to 6.45pm
Tuition from 7.30pm to 9.15pm

Tuesday - School till 2.50pm
~~Council meeting @ 3pm~~ ; Dental appointment
Dance class from 5.30pm to 6.45pm
Tuition from 7.30pm to 9.45pm

Wednesday - School + Math extended till 3.40pm
Training from 3.45pm to 6.45pm
Chingay practice from 7pm to 10pm
(HOORAY, I EXERCISE FOR 6H STRAIGHT TODAY. no wonder I'm dying)

Thursday - School + Math extended till 3.40pm
Tuition from 7.45pm to 10pm

Friday - School till 2.20pm
Training from 3.45pm to 6.45pm

Saturday (the best..) - Tuition from 10.45pm to 1pm
Long jump competition. (to reach @ 2pm; start @4pm)
Chingay media preview (~~reach @ 1.30pm for make-up/hair preparation~~ ;
rush there and MUST reach by 5.30pm) [actual thing starts at 7pm,
ends at 10pm]

Sunday - ~~HOMEWORK ; HOMEWORK ; HOMEWORK ; HOMEWORK~~
~~Die~~
Sleep and never wake up.

Yes. I know my life is awesome.
This is worse than a president's agenda, no?
Sighhh -____-
I am LOVING my fan-freakkin-tastic life -.-

Great. Now I need to go shower because I just came back from chingay practice.
I went straight from training.
I am: sweaty/sticky/stinky/tired/drowning/dying/breaking down (or at least I am about to)
Sigh.
Who wanna be me for a change?

And well, I don't get it.
Whatever happened in between?
I tried to understand, but I can't.
Maybe, when I'm a little less tired, someday, I'll figure it out.
But right now, I'm too tired to think.
Whatever happened to our secrets?
Tschh, I'm gonna shower now.

rae.

/Take a story

2009-12-27T15:48:00.006+08:00

/Take a story.

Okayyy. So I'm sitting here using sean's laptop at his house.
Boringggg.
I have no idea what to do.
Sissy's out working.
Anddd, I don't feel like doing homework just yet.
I did homework for 6h straight yesterday! Hah.
And I finished EL and half of E Math today.
Still have ss, physics and e-lit left.

Hahaha, christmas was funnnn :)
Well at least I like the way we celebrate christmas by getting any item that we want, as long as it's within 60bucks ;)
Heh.

So yeah, I went christmas shopping together with like, all 9 of my cousins last monday too.
Me and jt bought the same shirt from Fox :)
But different colour.
It's a shirt with a hood :)

Christmas was great.
This year was great.
But I don't want next year to come.
And I'm sure it won't get any better D:

rae.

/Sitting on the gnome.

2009-11-15T11:13:00.004+08:00

/Sitting on the gnome.

Hahaha. I know my blog is officially dead.
I'm really lazy to post nowadays.
Ah wells.
Just to keep an update, KFC photoshoot on last friday was funnnn :)
They paid Chantel and I, like a hundred bucks just to sit there and act like I'm talking. Lol..
Oh and we saw Yvette there too. Haha.
We're lik eh omg yvette?!
Hahaha, surprised to see her there too.
She's like doing the main role, so she's paid a lot more. Lol..
Andd, this *ahem* someone, was such a paedophile. GROSS.

Hmm ok so, blablabla, school the next few days.
Then yesterday, hah..
Hardcore cheer prac. 8am to 3pm D:
Mad right!
So now, I have to finish making my own pom-pom.. Sigh ._.

Schedule for next week
Monday: Training 9am - 12pm
Cheer prac (time???)
Chingay rehearsal 7.30pm - 10.30pm
Tuesday: Dance 3pm - 5pm
Wednesday: Training 8am - 12pm
Thursday: Nome at the moment.
Friday: Training (time??)
Chingay rehearsal (time??)
Saturday: Dance 8pm - 9pm
Sunday: Dance 8.30pm - 9.30pm

Awesome right?
What kinda holiday is this ):

/W(h)oooooop.

2009-10-20T10:30:00.003+08:00

/W(h)oooooop.

Went sentaosa yesterday.
It wasn't that hot yesterday.
Wanted to get a NICER tan actually.
Since I have this gross swim tan line.
But, oh wells.
Had aloooooot of fun :D

Haha, then went to shower and head off to superdog for lunch.
Then we went to watch Imagine That in the cinema.
It's like suuuuperr cute!
Hahah, it's a Ben & Jane thing? Lol.

And thennn, we spent alot alot alot of time in Forever 21.
And ended up buying 1 tanktop each -.-
Great, now I'm broke.
I spent $100 in 2 days -.-
Don't ask ):
Ok, $76, on account that jt is paying half of the price of bikini I bought. Lol.
But still D:
Hah, ok.
I'm off to Long Jump Sports Day heats now ._.
So nervous D:
Wish me luckkk.

rae.

/False pretence.

2009-10-14T22:53:00.002+08:00

/False pretence.

Guess my exam's finally over.
Actually, I'm not as happy as I thought I'd be.
Yet, I don't look forward to going back to school at all.
I don't know why.
Maybe I'm just not looking forward to hell, next year ):
Well, I've decided on alot of things these couple of months.
And I guess these are just for the best.
I don't need you and I'm still gonna go on, with or without you.
It's gonna be hard, but I think I can survive.
Somehow, NOT looking forward to friday's games carnival either.
Arghhh.
Screw this. I'M screwed.

Hm, I've been playing Bejeweled Blitz the whole of today.
Amazing man.

rae.

/You're on my radar.

2009-09-27T14:11:00.002+08:00

/You're on my radar.

Okayy, ahaha, blog's still majorly dead.
Oh wells.
Anyways, went to jt's house yesterday.
Hmm, to save time (and since I'm kinda lazy to blog anyways), I'm gonna kope from jt's blog post. LOL.

"Hello haha.
Studying on the white table in the middle of my room with my sis and jt + aircon :)
Hahaha I think we're super not productive because we keep talking, joking and laughing. Lol.
Oh and we sms-ed Sean altogether just now :D
Jt went 'Hi sean! :D', I went 'Yo sean! :D', and my sis typed 'Howdy sean! :D'
Hahaha damn cool!
Then Sean replied me only! (jealous jealous ;D)
So jt sms-ed him calling him bias and the next moment he called haha! :)
Missed Sean so much haha, didn't see him in about 2 months already?
Really haven't seen him in ages!
But gonna see him during the wedding dinner tomorrow!
He's grown taller, like 159cm already .. and his voice changed too!
Guess we're gonna meet a different Sean (only still as retarded) tomorrow :]
Can't wait to see everyone lol.
Then Sean and the three of us were talking so much and laughin over nearly everything :)
Had a great chat.
We procrastinated for like half an hour? Lol but it felt so short ..
But in the end we had to study already, and Sean refused to put down lol, guess he missed us a lot too :)
And he really needs to destress I guess, since he's been hardcore mugging for PSLE the past few, weeks?
Well PSLE in 10 days lol, goodluck to him. EOYs starts tmr ._.
Haven't start on bio and geog.
Gotta mug harder, ._."

Yep, so I sooooo can't wait for wedding dinner later!
I'm gonna eat alot.
Hah, then reach home damn late, then go school for exam tomorrow.
How great.
I'm serious about our whole class gonna fail english ):
(I'm sure we all know why)

Ah well, back to social studies ._.
Toodle!
(Till after eoys, I'll see ya.)

rae.

/Sweep me off my feet.

2009-09-13T22:01:00.000+08:00

/Sweep me off my feet.

Okayyyyy. My blog is majorly dead.
I decided that I will be away from blogging till the end of EOYs.
Haha, but for now, sleepover was funnnnnn <3 (Friday - Saturday)
Though we didn't win anything for bridge challenge.
But hey! Our bridge didn't even break...
It just slipped off ):
Ah well...
Me and Gen stayed up till 3am while Chantel got her beauty sleep at like 2am?
We ate macs at like 1.30am?
Apparently, Chantel screamed across the loft and almost everyone in the whole loft building came out to see what's the commosion..
Lol.
So then, we were pretty much like walking zombies the next day, with fugly eyebags -.-
And thennnn, I went home, slept from 3pm to 8pm, then woke up for dinner. Hahaha.
Madness..
My sleeping schedules are sooooo screwed.
So yes, I wasted my WHOLE DAY today ):
I am so dead..
Sigh. And I got hooked onto Pretty Little Liars. NOOOOO D:
No, Rachel.
Don't you dare think about it.
Don't pick it up again..

Ok, and I don't know what's with me again recently.
I thought I've managed to put it behind.
But now?
I don't know anymore ):

Ok, forgot about it.
I'm sorry for cheating on Loo Tat, but I think William is my new love ;D
He's so damn adorable :)
I sure I can survive on his cuteness, without Loo Tat's flabby arms :D
Hahaha.
Chantel Bay, stop fighting with me.
I found him first ):<
Lol.

Ah well, FTM, I'm so screwing my studies.

rae.

/Take it to the rules.

2009-09-01T22:21:00.001+08:00

/Take it to the rules.

Awesome. I haven't been blogger.
(Which, I guess is good.)
Since I'll be wasting less time on pointly-life-and-time-wasting stuff.
Ok so anyways, I've been super busy with life.

Yesterday, went to visit Mrs Cheng (:
She has 4 dogs now, apparently.
Haha, anyways, I looooooovvveeeee our Teacher's day celebration :D
It was soooo hilarious and entertaining! HAHHAHA.

So anyway, firstly, I'm so gonna get fat.
Check out my meal today:
Breakfast - Macs
Lunch - KFC delivery
Dinner - Chicken rice
-.-
Ok, so this morning, I went to j8.
Chantel and Cabby watched me eat breakfast -.-
Then we went to NTUC to buy the class party stuff.
Wow, $40 -.-
Just for marshmallows, wire mesh, plates etc, satay sticks and all.
Wow right?!
Then we went back to Chantel's house and I smsed almost like EVERYONE in our class about the food stuff.
Omg I was so darn busy -.-
Then after that Gen came.
We started on the bridge making thing.
W spent the WHOLE DAY doing that ):
And we weren't even done with it...
I have no idea what we were doing you know...
We were like discussing. STILL.
And arguing -.-
Then we had to pack up at 5.10pm?
Cause Chantel had to vacuum the place.
I was suppose to go eat Swensens sticky chewy chocolate with gen! ):
But then I decided not to be so fat -.-
So then I joined Bay and Cab to play basketball for like uh 15min?
The guys there invited us to play match with them -.-
WTH, no way am I gonna embarrass myself and get trampled over by them. LOL.
So then we went back up to get our stuff.
Oh man, I was DAMNNNNN late for ballet class.
I rushed off.
And got stuck at the gate cause I needed the freakkin card.
Then "matrix guy" from basketball, came to open the gate from me.
(And the rest shall be left unsaid)
Reached like 30min late for class -.-
Awesome.
Gonna do my trigo graded assignment now...
Due tmr. Great right?
And I'm not handing in my trigo homework.
I'm like not even halfway there -.-

Anyways, HAPPY TEACHERS DAY TO ALL TEACHERS OUT THERE (:

rae.

/The take's over.

2009-08-23T00:09:00.002+08:00

/The take's over.

Oooohhkayyy.
Before you read....
WARNING, THIS IS NOT FOR THE WEAK HEART. CONTENTS ARE HIGHLY DISTURBING.
(I shall not be held for any death.)
So yesterday, I had training.
Then went home by bus.
Somehow, I felt like throwing up again.. ):
I took 265, and totally like omg, I felt damn dizzy and felt like puking...
Then I went to amk hub to take bus.
But I was really scared I'll throw up on the bus.
So I went to the washroom first, and I really threw up there ):
So then, I thought I was fine..
When the bus came, I got on.
Midway, I felt like I really need to throw up again.
I tried to hold it in...
I didn't want to throw up on the bus and dirty it ):
And definitely not in front of like, the whole bus -.-
So I ran off the bus and all my contents came out right when I ran off the bus and leaned off the pavement behind the bus-stop :/

I looked around, and realised it was 4 stops more to my house...
So I decided I should just walk home, since I think bus will only make me feel worse...
So I walked home...
But I kinda more of vomitted-while-walking-home.
I walked for a while. Then I'd stop to throw up.
All the way till I reach home ):
Worse thing was I didn't have tissue D:
So.. Yeah...
And omg man, it came out of my nose too..
So I had no choice but to use my uhm, towel from training :/

Today... I slept and woke up with migraine again..
Ate breakfast, then I don't know why, but I felt really tired still...
So I fell asleep till 2pm, and woke up for lunch.
Went to dance competition preparation at 3.30pm.
Yet again, I felt really dizzy and was on the verge of feeling like vommting :/
THE WHOLE TIME TILL BEFORE OUR COMPETITION ITEM WAS UP ):
After our item, we went up to the audience to sit and watch the rest.
I'm not sure if it's just me or what, but the lights felt really glaring after a while, and I was damn dizzy.

So yeah anyway, we didn't win, haha. But oh wells.
It's ok then.
I think Me, Rebecca and Emily are doing solo dance competition next year (:

Ah well, I need to get to bed ):
I'm feeling really really dizzy again.
And before I throw up, I need to get some sleep...

(I swear I'm pregnant I tell you.. I will tell you when the baby's out. HAHAHAH)

rae.

/You won't be sorry.

2009-08-17T21:33:00.003+08:00

/You won't be sorry.

Urghh, FAG.
I AM FREAKKIN HAVING MIGRAINE EVERY SINGLE DAY WITHOUT FAIL NOWADAYS.
What the heck is wrong with me D:
Well, I'm sorry if I can't help but eat double dosage of the medicine to get my migraine off.
I need to get my migraine off.
It's been killing me. Especially during training.
Well, I'm glad it kinda relaxed after double dosage.
Or else, I have no idea what to do...

Ok, I need to go back to:
1. Geography Graded assignment due wednesday
2. Social Studies Test on Friday
3. Physics SPA test tomorrow
4. 听写 on wenesday

rae.

/Can't stay forever.

2009-08-15T00:07:00.004+08:00

/Can't stay forever.

Cool man.
Sooooo. Thursday.
Went to see the doctor.
So now I have like "MC", or like excuse from exercise till next tuesday.
Then studied with jamie. (She came to my house)
Went to tuition at night.

Friday, which is today.
Didn't go for training.
Cause like haha, idk, I'm not suppose to go for training anyway, like in case I'm gonna spread to the rest or something.
So I went straight the Chantel's house.
She invited, me, Addie, Letian, Mabel, Cabby and Gen to her younger brother's birthday party.
LT couldn't go cause she had tuition, Mabel couldn't go cause she had church stuff.
And Gen simply just don't wanna go cause, according to her, it's damn weird -.-
Then addie and cabby went later, after their cca.

So then, I went home with Chantel.
Hahhh, though I didn't go for training,
I got too tempted by the pool.
So me and Chantel went to swim.
Lol, ok not really swim much lo.
Like just laze around the pool and gossip gossip, ~~bitch bitch.~~ Lol.
Then it started raining.. ZZZZ.
So we went to eat lunch.
Which so happened that it stopped raining -.-
Then after lunch we went to swim again.
And this time, it rained AGAIN.
So we're like just whatever luh, and went to shower.
After showering, we came out, the sun was out again -.-
We're super jinxed man.

So then we went upstairs.
Was about to start watching Marley & Me when her mom wanted us to like go downstairs to get the BBQ pit ready.
Hahh, wowwww.
We had so much fun going up and down the building, from her house to the pit man.
First, we went to take the packets of ice.
After that, went up again to take basketball.
Then went down, then went up again to change slippers.
Then went down.
Went up to take those aluminium tray kinda thing, came down.
Then went up again to take soccer ball.
Wahlao, damn fun man -.-

Blabla, went to play basketball with Bay while waiting for Darren (her bro) to arrive.
OH OH OH! HAHA!
I swear her grandmother is damn cute!
HAHAH. She so cute la! Super blur. LOL.
And I'm damn proud of myself man, I actually spoke cantonese.
When I like, RARELY speak that.

Then the guests start coming.
Entertained the guests.
Darren came.
Then Ade & Cabby came.
Ate dinner, then went to play basketball again. Hahah.
Gosh, I'm so tired now man!
After the doctor said "no vigorous exercise till next tuesday"...
Hah, retarded yo!
We totally felt like jumping into the pool. But we can't, cause we need proper attire.
But yeah anyway, Evan's brother, Edwin is so freakkin adorable!
He's like P5 but he looks P3. LOL.
And I'm super sure he's like hyper active or something! Lol.
So yeah, we pretty much just ate, ate, ate, ate, basketball, basketball, basketball till like 10.45pm?
We to return the tables and chair.
Ade and Cab went home.
I went upstairs with Chantel to get my stuff and waited for my parents.
They came, then I went home.
Reached home at like 11.30pm.
Showered again, for the second time.
Haha. Today was kinda fun and tiring.
Thanks for the invite Chantel!
And Happy Birthday again Darren! :D

Tomorrow, Dental at 12.15pm.
Up! with Jamie tomorrow afternoon :D

rae.

/Not wishing no more.

2009-08-12T23:01:00.001+08:00

/Not wishing no more.

Arghh. My headache is still as bad today.
I was "emo-ing" during training today.
And as usual, my juniors were like bugging me, asking me why I'm so "sian" today. Lol..
Ah well, thanks for the concern anyway.

Sigh, this sucks. I need to be back on medication.
I hate this.
First off, I think the whole medication thing is bullshit.
Sorry, but ok, though it kinda helps, but hello...
It may make my head feels heavy the next day, then I'd take another medication.
Then I'd need to pray that I won't get gastric from over relying on Diclofenac Sodium :/
So hey, I think I'd rather sacrafice some sleep time than over relying on DS.

In any case, I hate myself for having so much problems -.-
Like my sis said, if I don't have any problems, with the amount of medication I take, I'd go sick one day.

rae.

/Where we take the road,

2009-08-11T22:58:00.001+08:00

/Where we take the road,
(the road still goes on.)

Great, I survived today.
Lets see..
I woke up with a freakkin bad headache today, almost like a hangover...
My head was literally spinning.
I went to school, and then had a really really bad stomache for a long long time.
THE WHOLE MORNING.
I WANTED TO DIE...
And then early in the morning, I had to run to someone to do council duty.
Then I came back and then helped Peiyun do her early dismissal form because she had a really bad stomache and had to go back.
So I'm like (how bout me -.-)
But anyway, I didn't exactly wanna go home since it's not exactly something severe enough to make me go home and miss English Test today.
So I just stayed on being like a half zombie.
And then, I have no idea what it was, or why...
But then I started having this sharp pain near my stomach.
I'm not sure if it's gastric...
Happened before, but I still don't know what it is..
But I really couldn't walk at all.
And once I sat down, I couldn't stand up.
I don't know why.
I just couldn't lift my left leg.
The pain would be even more severe D:
It lasted all the way till like idk, 12pm?

And I didn't wanna go home because I know the pain would subside by the time I get home.
So I stayed and was really really quiet today and I was showing this face.
And my friends were like why are you so tired today, or why are you so sian.
Haha :/
Apparently, I was right, it kinda subside by about 12.30pm?
But my headache was still really bad..

But anyways, I screwed biology ):
So much for studying till 2am.
Ok actually, so much for cramming.
I got B4 ): (AND WAS LISTENING TO JI MENGDI COMPLAIN HER "LOW" MARKS. A1, WOMAN, A1. I GOT B4 -.-)

Ok great, E math test tomorrow and I totally didn't study at all.
Actually, I don't know how I can study for that test.
So... Yeah.
Ok, geography, physics, chemistry homework.
Shall do geography in school tomorrow.
My headache's still killing me...
Shall go to bed after I'm done with Physics SPA.

rae.

/I don't wanna fall for it now.

2009-08-10T13:44:00.005+08:00

/I don't wanna fall for it now.

I'm really really really sorry.
I don't know what else to say.
But I really am.
Right now, I think this is for the best.
I can't do this.
Not right now.
Please don't take it the wrong way..
But please know that I've never regret ok?
I messed up, big time.

rae.

/Happy national day!

2009-08-09T22:00:00.006+08:00

/HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!

Okayy, so today, I pretty much just rotted/wasted my day away again ):
I REALLY NEED TO FIND MY MOTIVATION BACK ):
Or I'm just really really really screwed...
Maybe I just need to find the reason why I've been like that these few days.
Or maybe I do know the reason, just that I refuse to acknowledge it..
Or I'm just gonna hope that this is just a side effect from my freakkin bloody affair which will pass within days.. ):
In any case, the point is, I can't continue being like this.
ARGHH, WAKE UP RACHEL.

So yeah, I wasted the whole morning of my life away, then came to jt's house.
Then I freakkin wanted to swim, but I couldn't...
SHIT LA.

Then after that we just went downstairs to take picure of them at the pool while they swam.
Which is why we got wet -.-

Then we went to playground to camwhore. Haha...
Then went to basketball court to play for a while.
Came upstairs, used the computer, wasted my life, used the comp, wasted my life, eat dinner, watched tv, then wasted my life...
Awesome right?
Sounds soooo interesting doesn't it.

Seriously, what is wrong with me nowadays?
Zzzzzz.

rae.

Note to self: Start studying and stop screwing you studies.

/A route for escape.

2009-08-07T22:26:00.004+08:00

/A route for escape.

Okayyy, National Day celebration in school today. Haha.
Wth, I got caught got skirt being too short -____-
Ok, but then again, about like 300 odd people got caught..
But yeahh, :/

Hmm, went home after that, apparently Joni had fever today.
So we didn't go library in the end since she's not in school.
Then went home, got stranded outside my house for very long.
Cause I didn't have the key and my maid was out somewhere....
Then went home debated with hy and got pissed -.-
Then went out of my house to go meet wuanting and hk.
Sat at the platform and wait for like idk 30min, for hk.
Mrt-ed, then bus-ed to kallang.
Didn't play tennis in the end?
Cause they had no intention of playing -.-
Joker man.

So then wuanting met us at kallang leisure after like idk, 1h+?
We practically just walked the whole place and sat at this ulu (seems to be) old-deserted-bus interchange.
Then saw wt walked here. Lol.So we went to eat lunch at pasta mania.
Then me and wuanting ate Yoguru.
I CAN TOTALLY PRONOUNCE THAT CAN. LOL.

Then shared cab back with hk cause he had to reach home early -___-
So that was my day man. Hahhh.

rae.

/Let it take you off your feet.

2009-08-05T22:18:00.000+08:00

/Let it take you off your feet.

Today was wacky-tacky-zonker-goner-awesome-depressing.
I have succesfully completed 4 tests today without breaking a finger and also only ended up studying for only 1 test.
I had e-lit (write a lot), chinese yi lun wen (write a lot again), geography (and again) and physics tests today.
Out of which, I only managed to study like geography.
Awesome right?

Anyways, went for casting with Bay today (:
We were so excited-nervous-jumpy-happy about it. Hahaha.
So anyway, we like, met at Dhoby Ghaut and cab there.
And apparently got daylight-robbed by.
It was a freakkin short distance but we had to pay $8.40 just because of meter fare and because it's in town area -.-
But yeah anyway, casting was flat out hilarious. HAHAHA.
Bay smiles like she saw her crush. HAHAHA.
Retarded. Lol.
So yeah, I went first anyway.
I think I had to do it so many more times than her -.-
Heh, so yeah, daddy fetched us back.
Actually we went to Pavillion to see first.
Oh mann, you should totally see the night view there.
FREAKKIN PRETTY.
City's night view.
(Which apparenly cost 1.5million..)
Then sent Chantel home, and we went home too.

Apparently, I'm taking a break today.
I'm guily (or not) for not doing my math homework at all.
I haven't even touched it.
Oh wells.
I'm so darn tired ):
Gonna head to bed now.
Seeya :D
Haha, can't wait for tomorrow to end man!
Then I can have a long break till monday :D
Yeah babehhh.
And I'm going out with wt, hk and hy. Muahah.
Finally...
K, tah-tahhhh!

rae.

/Don't wanna miss a thing.

2009-08-02T17:59:00.000+08:00

/Don't wanna miss a thing.

Oohhhhkay. I'm pretty sure my blog readers are like zilch now. Lol.
Eh I've been damn guai can.
I haven't been on the computer like since idk, monday?
Damn, I've been really really really busy though.
Anyways, Biology test on thursday totally killed me.
And then I went to play tennis on thursday.
Apparently, I had a WONDERFUL time on my journey there man. Lol.
First I took 159 there, not really knowing that there's something called 159 from across the road -.-
So I just went on it and went all the way to sengkang bus interechange...
I'm like wth man.
Didn't occur to me that I'm suppose to take the bus from opposite..
Then I had to take mrt from there to serangoon mrt.
From there, switch to circle line, to lorong chuan.
Apparently, there was some problem with the mrt or smth.
So we got stuck there for like idk, 5-10min -.-
Waste my time.
So I ended up starting tennis at 5pm when we're suppose to play at 4pm..
Blah.

Friday,
Oh wow, we did jump circuit, gym, 100m, 200m, 300m.
Almosts killed me.
And I was already haveing major muscleache can.
Wahlao. Accumulated from tuesday.
Build up of lactic acids
Hah, I studied my bio k.

Haha, so yeah then went home. Dinner. Slept.
Woke up at 4am to go for Osim Triathlon CIP.
Hahaha.
Actually, I wasn't sure what I was gonna expect from there.
But yeah, me and Chantel pretty much just rotted our 2h away.
She seriously like rushed out of her house for NOTHING.
LOL, thinking how she's so darn late.
Anyways, so she claims that James hate us for the "nice" distribution of location/people to us. Lol.
Ok la, it wasn't that bad.
So we pretty much just be traffic lights for 6 whole hours.
Got our 20bucks (well, Chantel's 25bucks -.-), got our bags and left.
Dad sent her back, I went home, slept.
Omg, you have no idea how tired I was.
So then, dinner, then had tuition from idk, 9pm? Till 12am.
Wow.

rae.

/Sweet surrender

2009-07-26T22:28:00.000+08:00

Oh wow. Today's CIP.
Tschhh.
It was so.. WOW.
Ok, 2 words to describe it.
UNBELIEVABLE TRAUMATIZING.
This is like the worse experience ever -.-
Bad experience.
Right chantel ._.
We freaked. How awesome.
And then we ended up needing one of the guys to follow us wherever we go after that.
But nevertheless, today was quite productive.
We're damn happy that collected a lot a lot of stuff.
Mainly books and soft toys and clothes today. Haha.
I'm so getting more musceache tomorrow ):

Ok, I need sleep.
And I need to study biology tomorrow.
NOOOOO, why is there training ):
You can kill me right now ):

rae.

2009-07-24T23:27:00.002+08:00

Haha, my blog has been dead much?
Cause I've been damnnnnn busy D:
Ok updates..
Training started.
And we're all sooooo out of shape :/
Hmm ok thennn, went to leadership workshop on tuesday and skipped dance class... zzzz.
Wednesday went to support primary T&F nationals.
Yesterday, we just found out that we have E-lit test today -.-
So retarded...
But yeah, had Chemistry test yesterday.
Was so darn easy :DDD
Then went for a jog with Heungkin -___-
Who DRAGGED me along.. I didn't feel like running yesterday man..
So like ok, we did almost 3k I think?
Cause his ankle hurts, and then he had cramps on this calf -.-
So then today, I almost got killed during training.
Killer workout...
AFTER YESTERDAY'S 3K RUN -.-
Omg la, I'm very nuah now D:
Sure get muscleache tmr...
Sighhh, Chem project with ning xuan and ying tong tomorrow.

Oh godddd, I'm soooo screwed ):
I have 1 day to complete chem hw, chinese hw, physics homework and like study bio D:
Cause Sunday is spent wasted for CIP ):

Hmm, ok absolute boyfriend is last episode today (:
Gtg :D

rae.

/Just wanna get.

2009-07-18T23:30:00.003+08:00

/Just wanna get.

Awesome.
Guess what, my class is freakkin isolated.
Cause we have a H1N1 case in our class.
So yeahh.

Hmm anyway, watched Harry Potter and the half blood prince yesterday night with my family and Meng & Bin.
Till like 12am+.
The movie was..
Disappointing...
Quite suck luh.
No climax. Sighhh.
Then M & B stayed overnight at our house.

12.35am:
Ok anyway, so today, finally met jt after such a long long long time.
She came to our house.
Family gathering today.
Ok, I'm freakking bored now ._.
Zzzzz.
Why does everything seem so pointless...

rae.

/Do you know, what it's all about.

2009-07-13T20:10:00.005+08:00

/Do you know,
(What it's all about.)

I don't get it.
No wait, maybe YOU don't get it.
I try to tell you, but you don't see it.
You don't get it.
I'm not the one escaping. You're the one who's excaping, refusing to believe something's wrong.
No it's not normal.
Or usual.
I'm don't see how you can still be so chirpy about it.
You don't hear what I'm trying to say.
You're not listening to me.
And I don't know what to do about it anymore.

rae.

/Leave it on the line.

2009-07-13T15:03:00.001+08:00

/Leave it on the line.

Okayyy, so I just got braces on saturday.
I think I look freakkin retarded -.-
Tschh, according to people:

Letian - YOU LOOK MORE INNOCENT!
Adeline - You look less... Bimbotic! It's the truth

-.-
Do I look THAT bimbo -.-

Ok, but anyway, I only have braces on the top row.
I don't know why too...
But I'm getting the bottom row like next month or 2 months later.

Shall go do work now..
I have Geography graded assignment to do ._.

rae.

Tags.
Hy; Hahaha, eh wahlao! We did ask you man! Heungkin said you were busy or you had something on or something -.-
Wt; Of course the truth (:
Hy; Thanks alot man -.- You are full of crap mannn! Lol.. You damn good -.-
Wt; Lol. Nice one.
Hy; Ya right, lol. Sad you head man. No one cares :D

/The beat is set.

2009-07-10T22:02:00.002+08:00

/The beat is set.

Hello.
So apparently, today, I think I suffered from excessive loss of blood or smth -.-
I was freakkin giddy in school.
And then, by the end of the school, I was having gastrics ._.
Or cramps.
Or both?
I don't know -.-
But yeah, went home for lunch.
Except that I didn't tell my maid I'll be home for lunch.
Andddd, just nice, we ran out of maggie noodle -.-
So I had to like practically crawl to Mobil to buy.

So anyway, I was suppose to go for the AYG appreciation event.
But I ended up not going. Lol.
Because I:

1. Found it kinda pointless.
2. Think its retarded to go by myself since Amanda isn't even going (I doubt martha's going)
3. Was kinda lazy to.
4. Will need to rush like crap if I decided to go -.-

So I didn't go. Lol.
And ended up playing tennis with heungkin instead. AHAHAH.
Retard.
Ok so apparently, now my left hand hurts.
Quite a lot :/
Suck la.
I don't know what happened to my backhand after sec 1 :/
It's like I don't know how to hit a backhand anymore.
My backhand feels like I forced the swing now :/
Sighh.

Oh noooo.
It's like 10.20pm only and I'm feeling sleepy already.
What's wrong with me D:

Haha, oh and I have like dental tomorrow :/
I'm not sure if I'm getting braces tomorrow or what.
Gahhh..
I want braces.
But ironically, I can't wait to get it off after my teeth are nice man..
Tschhhh.

rae.

/Thinkin' of you.

2009-07-09T22:25:00.003+08:00

/Thinkin' of you.

Okayyy so my day had sucked.
Until I played tennis anyway.
So, here's what happened in school:
1. I twisted my left ankle.
2. I twisted my left ankle AGAIN, during PE.
3. Then I tripped and scraped my knee and it bled during PE.
4. My math is total gone case ._. (I'm prepared to FAIL)

Thank god for loose joint, my ankle's perfectly fine.
So yeahh, then I went to play tennis with Heungkin, while his 3 other friends played at another court.
Thennn, it started raining so heavily after 1h of tennis, we ran for shelter. Lol.
Ended up playing squash for 2h instead. Lol.
Played till about 6pm.
Then his friends left.
Then I continued playing with him till about 6.35pm?
Then went home.
The other reasons why my day sucked?

5. I broke my blister ._.
6. I came home with a blister on my thumb.
7. And also a cut on my middle finger :/
8. And lastly, just because. Lol.

Haha, according to Heungkin, number 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6 and 7 can be cancelled because the good thing is "I LEARNT HOW TO PLAY SQUASH."
Lol..
Hk was teaching me? Lol.
Never played before man.
So yeahhhh.

Well, gonna go to bed now.
Pretty tired today :/
Especially since I slept at 12am yesterday, because I was studying math.
(And yet screwed it ._.)
Well, think I'm most probably going for the AYG appreciation event tomorrow at 5pm.
So yep.
Night!

rae.

TagR.
Wuanting; Hahah, exactly. Not poser not poser (:
HY; hahah. No one said you were busy (: Tschh, not poser. I know (:
Wuanting; Oh, ahah. Nahh, its today. I played with heungkin.

/Emotions keep spinning.

2009-07-06T20:47:00.004+08:00

/Emotions keep spinning.

Okayyyy so today's study session was kinda productive.
I finished 6 pages of geography, physics worksheet and 1 co-ord geometry practice paper.
Today's super rainy..
Really cold :/
And makes me feel kinda idk, not right.
Sighh.
Ok, I think I wanna make it a point to try to play tennis every uh thursday?
Lol.
Well provided that Heungkin and/or Hsiangyeh can play luh.
Sighhhh. Tennis tennis.

I don't know why I really feel like I don't care about anything else :/

Ok well, shan't think too much.
Brain's exploding..
Back to ting xie ._.
SEEYA.

rae.

/All too soon.

2009-07-05T13:25:00.004+08:00

/All too soon.

Haha, you know, sometimes I really wonder what's wrong with me ):
Sighhh.
Seriously, I can't figure what's going on :/
Ah well...
You know, I don't know why, but I just can't seem to be bothered about anything (especially studies D:) ; I just wanna play tennis.
Sighhhh.
Tennis. Tennis. Tennis. Tennis.
): ): ): ): ):
I guess maybe because it helps me to relieve stress :/

- Hong Kong cafe for lunch later -

rae.

/I never meant to,

2009-07-04T00:10:00.004+08:00

/I never meant to,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WUANTING! :D
LOVE YA BABE (:
Have a wonderful birthday this year!

Yep, so went to school today.
Thought I was gonna die man -.-
Today felt DAMNNNNN long D:
Sigh.
Then did patrolling duty during first half of recess.
After school, had council wing meeting.

GAHHH AND OMG, did you guys hear ):
SPORTS CARNIVAL IS CANCELLED ):
Godd, how can they do this to us luh!
Sighhh.
All we're praying now is for sports carnival to go on as usual. (or at least the cheerleading part anyway)

Ok so yeah, went for tennis after that.
Hahahaha omgg I was wondering why doesn Heungkin look so red when I saw him at 4pm.
Turns out that he and Hsiangyeh were already playing since 12pm :O
Wowwww.
Apparently, we played till about 8pm.
Which is like another 4hour.
And that means they played for like 8hours.
Madness! :O

So then we went for dinner at ChompChomp.
Hehh, Heungkin was my "ATM". Lol.
Ok luh, but I returned him the money in the end.
I just didn't bring money along.
We bought alot of stuff mann.
I spent like $18 on food :x
Haha so yeah, then I paid Heungkin back after he and Hsiangyeh walked me back home.

Gahhh, damn tired now.
Pretty sure I'm gonna get muscle ache or smth tmr ._.
Hahah, oh well!

rae.

/Sneaking out that door.

2009-07-02T18:19:00.003+08:00

/Sneaking out that door.

Heyyy!
Thanks guys, everyone who wished me happy birthday (:
And thanks Nicole, Felicia, Wendy and Carren for that present (:
Kinda surprised you know. Lol.
And well, thanks everyone else for all the presents too (:
Hehhh!
Well, so yesterday, the photoshoot started at 8.10am and ended at 4.30pm for me.
I was pretty tired by the time it was like 3pm.
Anywayy, this little girl called Monica (not sure if this is how it's spelt) was damnnnn cute :D
She was like my sis in that photoshoot (:
Goshhh, I miss her ):
She's like 7 years old.
Apparently, she wanted me to add, but the email she gave me was like invalid or smth ):
So now I can't find herrr ):

Here's a picture of her during the photoshoot in the park scene.
MONICA AULIA;

Anyone saw her? ):

rae.

/It's the moment where, you look me in the eye.

2009-06-29T21:38:00.003+08:00

/It's the moment where,
you look me in the eye.

Oh mannn Chantel Bay, I realised we are seriously twins ._.
First the looks then the opinions. Lol.
Arghh ):
Hahah, seriously.
Why must I think the same way as you -.-
I'm totally gonna die, please.
SIGHHHH.

Great, and school started today.
SIGHHHH.
Was dozing off at physics ._.
What's up with me man..
Then went for AYG duty after school.
I was in-charge of kumain.
Waited super long.
Stood from like 2pm till 6pm can -.-
My back was aching after that..
Ok, uhh no homework today?
Gonna sleep.
I'm insane; I know.

rae.

/Flashback to lastnight.

2009-06-27T23:20:00.004+08:00

/Flashback to lastnight.

Oh mann. I'm seriously dead.
I still have E-lit to finish ._.
And EL summary x4 :x
Then ting xie.
And to finish reading the whole tkam book (which is pretty much impossible)
Oh nooooo ):
Ok, back to work.
Seriously. Stay focus D:
Yeah well, I'm not in the mood to sleep yet anyway.
Since I'm still so freakkin full from dinner at nihon mura.
Gahhh.

rae.

Tagreplies!
je; Hahahah. Cause I was bored! And it was gonna rain. So the pic turned out like that :x
jamie; lol. Okayy, thanks. Lmao.
jtwong; Hahaha. But I find it nice to call it swine. I mean, "I'm so getting swine." totally sounds better than "I'm so geting H1N1." LOL!
Felicia; Thanks (:

/Roadkill.

2009-06-26T15:51:00.003+08:00

/Roadkill.

Arghhh, I didn't know a tennis game can cause such major muscleache D:
But then again, I haven't played for 3 months...
So yeah, played with heungkin on wednesday! :DDD
Then went for brunch.
Ok, he totally made me run (on purpose), during the game...
When I haven't played for so long.
How nice...

Okayy I'm so freakkin boreddd today.
Well, and yesterday.
Ok, maybe kinda all the time.

But yeah anyway, greatttt(:
We're still doing AYG, but we got deployed to another country.
God, this whole AYG communication thing sucks..
We're really not well informed about this whole thing ):
Ok well, I should totally go finish up my homeworks :/

Seeya!
-can't wait for next wednesday ;)-

rae.

/I'll miss the catch.

2009-06-24T23:20:00.003+08:00

/I'll miss the catch.

Ohhhhkayy.
So my blog's pretty dead. Heh :/
But yeah anywayy, went to watch transformers 2 premiere with my family today.
It freakkin rocked (:
Really nice movie!

And yes btwwww ):
ACSI JuneAct is cancelled.
Due to swine flu. WTH??? :/
Another thinggg, our AYG thing is cancelled too -.-
Because since our school is in-charge of philippines.
And I think, their situation is pretty bad or something?
So we're not required at AYG anymore ):
This is so freakkin disappointing..
And thing is, we probably aren't even gonna do YOG next year.
Which makes it double worse ):
Sighhh.
I really hope the situation would turn better, then we might still resume duty. (according to our teacher anyway)

SIGHHHHH ):
Seriously, they pretty much cancelled everything they could cancel, but they just REFUSE to extend the school holidays ._.
Trust me, I so totally believe that swine is gonna multiply in the school population.

SIGHHHHHH

rae.

Note to self

2009-06-21T00:33:00.007+08:00

Note to self

READ TO KILL A MOCKINGBIRD ~~AND COMPLETE WORKSHEET TILL CHAPTER 7.~~
~~1. Physics worksheet 20~~
~~2. Physics worksheet 21 - moments 1~~
~~3. Physics worksheet 21- moments 2~~
4. Physics revision worksheet
~~5. Geography (un)graded assignment~~
~~6. Geography workbook homework~~
~~7. ALL geography edulearn assignments (X4)~~
~~8. Social studies workbook~~
~~9. Chemistry Acids, Bases, Salts revision~~
~~10. Biology notes~~
~~11. Mathematics - Quadratic Function & Equation project~~
~~12. English Comprehension Paper 5-8~~
13. Chinese ting xie
~~14. Elective English Literature unseen prose~~

Oh godd, I'm so dead ._.
Someone please give me some motivation to do my work? ._.

rae.

2009-06-18T12:50:00.003+08:00

/Set your world on fire.

Okayyyy I haven't been blogging much.
Since I haven't been using the comp much.
Anddd, I'm really busy ):
My whole june is really goner ):
I realised like I go to school at an average of 4 out of 5 days in this holiday D:
Ok, not school only.
But you know, school related activites.
Science centre, ACSI, AYG training etc that are not in school.

Goshhh, I really need to catch up on my work ):
Hahah oh and seriously, I still cant believe I got the job (:
Hehhh.

rae.

/Never get the chance again.

2009-06-14T15:21:00.002+08:00

/Never get the chance again.

Gahh ok, so I know my fun days are over and I need to start on my work already.
Ok, not that I have lotsa fun the past 2 weeks.
(Since I've been doing school related stuff almost everyday)
But still, I miss those days I went out with my friends and allll ):
Cause it's all study and stuff, from now onwardddds.

Ok so anywayyy...
I had my tooth extracted yesterday ._.
And gotta get another 2 removed on friday D:
Because I'm getting braces soon.
Arghh, so now, my gum is really sore and I can't eat much.
Or don't feel like eating anyway.
Worse thing is, the tooth they extracted today is milk tooth.
Friday's gonna be a milk tooth and a permanent tooth :/
And I'm definitely not looking forward to it ):

Meanwhile, jtwong you suck for now coming AGAIN yesterday -.-
Andddd, my gum is still sore :/

rae.

/If you're looking for thrills.

2009-06-11T17:51:00.003+08:00

/If you're looking for thrills.

Gahhhh. I haven't been doing my homework ):
I just can't seem to find the motivation to :/
Ok, went to IT show today and ROTTED there.
Actually, yes I went there.
But I stayed there WAITING for my parents to get my sis her phone. -.-
Geez.
I want student plan ):
I'm damn sad luhhh!
My sis got a new phone, my friend's getting a new sony walkman, someone's getting a nano chromatic, even jt got a new camera...
I don't even get to have student plan -.-
So dumb mannnn.
SIAN.

Ok, going for Terminator Salvation now, with my family.
Bye.

rae.

/Do you see.

2009-06-09T22:21:00.003+08:00

/Do you see.

Awesome.
I don't wanna get into any trouble. What's with everyone...
There isn't even anything going on/happening, but yet I have to get all these rubbish.
I don't need people probing into my personal life -.-
Sucks being a gossip magnet -.- (according to jolyne anyway)

rae.

/Dreaming bout the day.

2009-06-08T22:06:00.004+08:00

/Dreaming bout the day.

Okayyy, so today's SLC was pretty fun. Haha.
With my group anyway (:
I'm kinda lazy to post photos right now.
Soooo, another day (:
Haha.
Gahhh, I'm feeling really really unmotivated right now ):
Staring at my pile of homework isn't helping either :/
I really need to start soon D:
Study tomorrow!
HOMEWORKS.

rae.

Tags
Flo; Hahah. helloooo! Yeah I know right ): Hmm I guess I've been really busy? Haven't started on any homework yet :/ and I've been having school activities on every single day, until the end of this week. And they aren't even lessons!
Jtwong; Yepp. Super nice! (:
Wuanting; YES YES! I TOTALLY WANNA WATCH THAT TOO! Gahhh, some day. When we can all find a free day.
Sarah F.; Yep, relinked!
Vanessa; Linked (:
I SAY; Hahah. Oh well (:

/A child's fantasy.

2009-06-07T21:47:00.004+08:00

/A child's fantasy.

Okayyyy this week's schedule:

Monday - Primary SLC facilitator (7.15am - 6pm)
Tuesday - Friend's house, dance class, tuition
Wednesday - Training, Sec 4 farewell
Thursday - Movies with family
Friday - Training, movies with friends? (Not confirmed yet)

Dang, yet another busy week ._.
I seriously need to start with my homework.
But then again, I can't bring myself to D:
Since I'm always soooo tired by the time I'm home everyday :/

Ok, my aim for tuesday "Finish all biology homework & start on Social studies!)
Tomorrow's gonna be such a lonngggggg day.
And most probably fun.
Luckily.

rae.

/Sound the truth.

2009-06-06T23:43:00.002+08:00

/Sound the truth.

Uhm shit...
I calculated.
I realised I spent more than $115 within 2 weeks ._.
Oh nooooo.
._.
I'm soooooo dead. ):
And, yes, I'm broke.
ALREADY.
Even before my holiday even started.
Mine anyway.
I can feel my heart breaking ):
God, what was I thinking man D:

rae.

2009-06-05T22:27:00.002+08:00

/Ditch me by.

Arghh, I'm so darn tired ):
I was like out the whole day yesterday.
Seriously.. I was home at like 10pm.
AYG thing was... Tiring.
All the travelling and the talks and the evacuation plans and all.
Then yeahh, went for something, then went for dance rehearsal after that.

Today, totally got killed by our training workout ._.
Hurdles was freakkin hard.
Uhmm, and my juniors cried cause they couldn't do it or smth ._.
Hey man! Don't cry! I was far worse than you guys when I first started off.
But yeah, did the killer gym workout again.
Except that it wasn't 10, 7, 5, 3 times.
It was pyramid ._.
As in, 10, 7, 5, 3, 5, 7, 10 D:

I'm glad I don't have training tomorrow.
Though I have track meeting at 1pm tomorrow ._.
Grahhhh.

Oh and did I mention that I haven't had the time to even TOUCH any of my holiday homework yet ._.

rae.

/Clock in a phase.

2009-06-02T22:31:00.004+08:00

/Clock in a phase.

Okay so like, I know blog is majorly dead ):
Been too lazy/busy/tired to blog. Haha.
Yeppp. So...
Went to The Cathay to watch Night At The Museum with Joni, Jamie and Clara.
Hehh, super funnyyyy (:
Loved it man!
& Heungkin.. Your taste is either weird, or it sucks. Lol.
Because you told me it wasn't nice... -.-
But yeah. So... Then hung around Plaza Sing and shared dinnerrr (:
Haha. Then I went for dance class.

Mondayyyyy.
Went to Science Centre.
Uhh boringgg.
Hah. Oh and Angels & Demons was nice, but hard to understand?

Hmm, today...
Council Camp.
Kinda a success (:

Pretty fun, but tiringgg.
Left early and didn't stay for Sec4 farewell because I had dance and tuition ):
So yep, really really tired now.
Gonna sleep!
Training tmr.

rae.

/Me against the world.

2009-05-30T23:30:00.003+08:00

/Me against the world.

Ok, I'm just being like way bored and had a sudden feeling of outburst for taking photos.

/Face it.

2009-05-30T17:44:00.002+08:00

/Face it.

Hahhh, ok apparently, my coach tried to kill all of us for training yesterday.
I'm glad I lived to tell the tale..
Check out our workout:

1. 10x1st weight benchpress
7X2nd weight
5X3rd weight
3X4th weight
2. 3X10 leg raises with 5kg weights (the abs workout thing)
3. 3X10 inclined sit up with 5kg weights
4. 3X10 back raises with 5kg weights
5. 3X10 bench step up with 5kg weights
6. 10 times of 17.5kg full squat
7 times of 20kg
5 times of 22.5kg
3 times of 25kg

Awesome right?
So then after that, she mde us do 5X150m uphill sprints ._.
And ended up giving us a discount till 3 times only.

Then I rushed to cheer audition immediately.
I GOT INTO CHEEEEEERRRRR! :D
YAYNESS!

Then after that went for friday fever (:
spent like $57 yesterday D:
Ok sooooo. Stayed for friday fever.
It was awesomeee (:

Learnt some cheer steps after that, during this gathering thingy with the cheer team.
Then like we were told to each choreograh one set of steps too.

After that, me, Ade and Mabel went to amk hub.
Stupid bay couldn't go again ):
Then me and Ade went to j8 to meet cabby while Mabel went home.
So then me, Ade and Cabby went to Charles and Keith to look around (:
Ok, I'm totally buying that pair of wedges (:
For $50, like tomorrow.
Then we went to Cotton On.
I bought a tank top and a dress there.
Spent like $32.90 :/
Then we ate dinner and drank bubble tea. Lol.

Went to Wisma after that (:
Hahahah, I can't believe we actually went there in our school PE attire/council tee.
Went into GAP, Forever 21, Charles and Keith, Hula and Co., Max and More.
Hahaha. We basically went into alot of shops to try on clothes for fun but didn't buy.
Hahahaha.
Thennnn, we bought cookies from Famous Amous (:
Hehh.
And after that, me and Ade bought dresses from Max & More (:
The dresses there are like so darn cheap and nice can!
It's like $19.90 for 1 and $10 for the second one.
So it was $30 in the end.
Ade picked a dress, and I picked one.
Spilt the price, and became $15 each :D
So darn cheap right!

So yep, left at 10pm+.
I took circle line back.
Gahh, damn tired yesterday.

Now, I'm at jt's house (:
& Basically not going swimming because I'm having MAJOR muscle ache from yesterday's killer workout ._.

/Take my hand

2009-05-28T23:04:00.002+08:00

/Take my hand

Hahaaaaa.
Ok so like, I'm really going mad.
I stayed up till 1am, studying for math yesterday.
And aparently, I just didn't do like all my other homeworks.
So, sadly I stayed back in school to complete all my homework, after cheer prac to like hand in before june holidays.
All, meaning:
1. Biology (transport in human) worksheet.
2. Physics SPA report.
3. Co-ordinate geometry math assignment
4. Chemistry (Acids, Bases, Salts) worksheet.

Which apparently took me like 1h 40min to finish...
Then bus-ed with jamie and clara.
I went j8 alone because chantel ditched me ):
Ok so yeah, went to Charles & Keith and saw a couple of shoes that I liked.
But I didn't buy anything in the end.
Cause I couldn't make up my mind. Hahah.
Then like, I went to cotton on to see a little first.
Decided to go back next time since I'm running out of time.

So then I rushed home and showered.
Barely ate anything for dinner, then rushed to dance rehearsal at Singapore Chinese Girls' School, while jt came over to my house -.-
So awesome right...
I missed her again...

Yepppp, soooo.

TOMORROW
8am-11am: Training
11am-???: Cheerleading audition
12pm-12.45pm: Council camp game dry run
1pm-3pm: FRIDAY FEVERRRR (:
3pm-6pm?: Chantel's house to swim
6pm-7pm: Dinner?
7pm-(idk)9pm? 10pm?: ACSI Star gazing thing

Tomorrow's gonna be a longgggggg day.

& Thanks Jamie, Joni and Clara for like adjusting to my like super super tight schedule(:
SUNDAY K? :D
PROMISE! :D
Can't wait!
MOVIEEEESSSS!

rae.

/I'll never get the chance again

2009-05-23T23:20:00.003+08:00

/I'll never get the chance again

Can I actually do something I want without people interfering for once ):
Somtimes I wish I can be unseeable for a while.

rae.

tagreplies
jt; haha yep. seems nicer (:
maryanne; thanks!
cd; lol okayyy. There's only 1 first tag. lol

/Sooner or later.

2009-05-22T22:01:00.003+08:00

/Sooner or later.

Hahhhh.
I survived today.
How awesome is that!
That's like a freakkinnnnn miracle D:

I-SURVIVED-2.4

Ok, so I pretty much ran more than 10 rounds today -.-
Because 6 rounds for 2.4k, 1 round around our school for training which is like 1.2k, plus like at least another round for warm up.

Goshhhh, am I glad that 2.4k is overrrr.
Not till next year that is :/
Ayeee, but heck.
Soooo great.
I shall now concentrate on letting my hamstring recover :/
Ok, after tomorrow anyway.
Gonna like run 2.5k with my sis tmr at this marina barrage walk/run event thing. Hahaha.
Call me mad, I already know that.
I've been driven mad since the moment napfa 2.4k started ._.

Hah ok so yeah, chem lesson was fun.
Cause our lesson (or not) was in library, doing nothing. Hahaha.

Goshhhh. I can't wait for my june holidays ):
But like I'll only have about 2 weeks free :/
I have:
1. Job attachment (5 days)
2. Science Centre (1 day)
3. Dance performance (1 day)
4. Council camp (1 day)
5. Track camp (1-2 days)
6. AYG training (1 day)
7. Usual track trainings (3 times a week for first 3 weeks)
8. Cheer practices (3 times a week, if I make it to the team)

Great. So what's left for myself man.
I have no ideaaaaaa ):

Ah crap, I have less than a month to complete some stuff.
Which obviously is totally impossible mannnn.
I need my artistic brain juices :/
Which is as good as ZILCH.

rae.

/It's the climb.

2009-05-19T22:45:00.003+08:00

/It's the climb.

Pffft.
How ironic can this get...
I totally wanna join Wuan Ting for their 10 rounds round, for tennis physical training.
But yet, I'm dreading the 2.4km NAPFA that's just THERE on friday, waiting for me..
I'm serious.
I'd SOOOO enjoy that 10 rounds more than I will enjoy NAPFA.
Which by the way, I so do not enjoy doing, and definitely not looking forward to AT ALL.
For some weird reason, I have this unknown passion for tennis that drives me on.
But track just...
I don't know. Kills me ):
I don't know what it is, but track just doesn't seem make me have that kinda passionnnn.
Arghhh shiaatttt.
Ok, I sorta enjoy track at times (the jumps training part)
But never the endurance part. (DUHHH)

I need to find back that passion and excitement I get whenever I play tennis.

It's what makes me actually enjoy running :/
I need it for my 2.4 on friday ):

Plus, someone tell me how I can wish for June holidays to come soon, but yet wish that 2.4 would NEVER come ):

rae.

/It's not over tonight.

2009-05-17T23:42:00.002+08:00

/It's not over tonight.

Okayyyy my life is screweddd ):
It's goodbye freedom, hello busy life.
I have every single hour of my free time planned.
With what work I'm suppose to do.

This week priority list:
1. NAPFA 2.4km. (AHHHHHH ): I DONT WANNA RUN I DONT WANNA RUN I DONT WANND RUN)
2. Geography graded assignment.
3. Ting xie.
4. Social studies test.
5. Social studies graded assignment.

Andddd my june holiday is like packed...
Dance performance, dance competition, AYG, trainings, job attachment, tuitions, AYG trainings, cheer prac.
Sheezt.
When can I finally put things down for a while ):
I'm so looking forward to june holidays.
But then again, what that about it, that I'm looking forward to :/

rae.

/Let me in the sound.

2009-05-15T20:25:00.003+08:00

/Let me in the sound.

Oooook. My blog is dead much?
Yeah well, I've been busy with life -.-
With what exactly?

1. Biology test
2. Math assignment
3. Cheerleading practice
4. Social studies

Okayyyy so...

Monday, went out.
Loved loved it.
Celebrated Joni's birthday.

Tuesday, cheer prac during recess.
Studied biology like mad, with CD.
And got swarmed my unsee-able mosquitoes -.-
But yeahh, pretty enjoyable (:

Wednesday, cheer prace during recess and after school, then training.
Slept at near 3am because I was studying for bio..

Thursday, cheer prac during recess and after school.
Slept at 1am+ because I was doing Math...

So overall, I slept like a total of 9h since wednesday night ._.
Like 9h+ for 2 nights? D:

I'm so sleeping at 10pm tonight.
Training at gombak tomorrow.
Uhhh, yay?

/You'll shine it down for me.

2009-05-11T22:07:00.003+08:00

/You'll shine it down for me.

Gahhh, I think I've had too much fun to still be in the mood for school ):
Camp, Orchard, Birthday celebrations ._.
Oh mannnn, I'm so so so so so dead for Biology test ._.
Someone, please tell me you haven't started studying? :/

But yeahh, I tink today was awesome.
Thanks for everything (:

rae.

/That feeling I never felt.

2009-05-10T00:43:00.002+08:00

/That feeling I never felt.

Muahahah, my dad bought PowerTap (:
It's freakkin comfortable. Hahahah.
Went to Hong Kong Cafe today to celebrate Mother's Day.
Super full nowww.

rae.

/Future sounds.

2009-05-08T16:32:00.003+08:00

/Future sounds.

3 words: CAMP WAS AWESOME.

3 Faith totally rocked. (:
I never knew we can be this bonded.
I never knew 3F can get this highhhh (:
Berlin and Storkholm is so awesome!
And 3F loves Instructor Arson and Bao Yun (:
You guys are the best instructors ever!

rae.

/Never regret.

2009-05-04T00:17:00.005+08:00

/Never regret.

I never thought it'd come so soon.
But there isn't any regret (:
I've gone in, and I'm not looking back.
I'm glad about everything that has happened today.
Haha, y'know maybe this is my newfound happiness (:
I'm feeling fuzzy inside.
And it felt great.

That initial spark can flash and fade.
Or it can become a flame and then a fire,
A rush of exhilaration yearning and sense of complete union
That scientist know as something so passionate and unseparatable.
♥

rae.

/You can always see.

2009-05-02T23:18:00.002+08:00

/You can always see.

You know, thinking back, I realised I don't know alot of stuff.
Like how people think of me and all?
Haha. But still, I think everyone has this she's-so-bimbo impression of me when they first saw me.
You know, I really wish I could do something without being judged for once? :/
Ok, not that everyone judges me.
But like, people who only SEE me thinks like I'm some idk, bimbo, bitch, two-sided, those that don't contribute to project kinda person?
Hahaha, which reminds me, everyone thought chantel was like someone who wouldn't contribute in a project kinda person.
But heckk, she's like the super neat and must make everything perfect one. LOL.
Ayeeee, but seriously, I think a lot of people hate me.
For what? I HAVE NO IDEA ._.

Haha, I think like at least half the people who first know me, didn't like me.
Until like they really know me after that.
Like how Deborah and Nicole thought I was stuck up and didn't like me at first?
But we all ended up being bestfriends? Lol.
Radd.
I remember Jean didn't like me last time, but we became friends?
In Primary school luh.
Haha, there's a lot a lot more.
Can't name all. Haha.
But still, I don't get why I get judged for like no reason?
Sighhhhh ):

rae.

/I just can't get enough.

2009-05-01T11:59:00.003+08:00

/I just can't get enough.

Hehh.
DAY WITH BAY WAS AWESOME (:
Hahaha. I'm serious.
Ok, so after house meeting, we went to like her house to shower.
Lol, her mom and her are flat out hilarious I'm telling you!
HAHAHAHA.
Funnyyyy.
So like then, we did our own make up together in the toilet.
And like, she pushed her mom out and told her not to look and like its pressuring and all.
HAHAHAHAH.
So then, I had green ones, and Chantel had purple.

Then we mrt-ed there.
And I'm pretty sure people were staring?

So then since we were like, late, we cab there after mrt.
Haha, ulu place, with scary chee ko pek ._.
But yeah, then pressed the bell, went up.

Hahh, the place was still cool (:
So then I went in first.
Hahaha, they were trying to do my hair and all.
Cause my fringe kept dropping down.
I think I was inside for like 30min or a little longer?
Wahlao. My face was tired from smiling so long and so much -.-
Then bay went in.
Waited for her outside.

Then after we were done, we went to UE square to grab smth to eat.
Then my dad fetched us back to her house.
So I went up to get my stuff.
AHAHAH. You wouldn't believe what happened in the lift.
HHAHAHA.
The most retarded thing happened.
We were like in the lift when going down.
Then like, I closed the door.
Then we were like standing there talking and all.
Then I'm like wondering why the lift took forever.
Then the lift was at 3rd floor but didnt open.
Then Chantel was like "wahlao rachel! You very smart! Very smart!"
And I realised I didn't press 1.
And I'm like opps?
But I thought I pressed!
Idkkk.
So then at 2nd floor, it opened again.
Then we closed.
After that we waited damn long again.
We're like err what?
Then we realised it wasn't pressed again.
And chantel started going "OMG RACHEL, DAMN SMART. I CANNOT STAND IT!"
And I'm like, uhh what! LOL.
Didn't we already press it just now? Lol.
So yeah.
Reached home lateeeee.
Damn tired after that. Hahhh.
Tired, but fun (:
And like talked to scott. Haha.
Ok ciaos.

And btw, jtwong, you suck for not going again tonight -.-
I've got like TONS to tell you!

rae.

/Let's hear it for them.

2009-04-28T23:09:00.002+08:00

/Let's hear it for them.

Ok the weirdest but coolest thing happened today (:
Lol, I just talked to the people that I never even think I'd ever talk to again after we went to separate schools.
But yes, I met like 5 boys on the bus today.
They were my Primary 1-2 classmate.
And 2 were my K1-2 playmates. Lol.
Ok, don't ask me why I still remember them, but I do :/
Weird eh?
But yes, I even remember 2 of their names. Lol.

So yeah, Ken was like staring at me when he came on the bus.
I had earpiece on that time.
Then he started asking his friend and stuff and saying how I looked really familiar.
Then he said something like how can he ask me since I have earpiece on and I can't hear.
But I'm like OKAYYYYY I can totally hear you?
But yes, I resist the urge to say that. LOL.
So then, Ivan was like "excuse me, but do we know you?"
And I'm like, "Yeah, you're ivan and he's kendrick right?
then they started laugh and went "OHHHH ok so we know each other." lol.
So then we started talking about what school we're in, what house colour we were in and stuff. Lol.

So then they alighted luh.
And I'm like, ok really weird but I have no idea why/how they still remember me, and vice versa?
Haha so yeah.
Apparently, ken changed alot..
He became alot nicer to me -.-
On account that he used to bully me and make fun at me all the time in Kindergardent.

Grahh ok I'm suppose to be studying physics ._.
I'm SOOOOOO failing.
AWESOME MUCH?

rae.

/Wish she never looked at me that way.

2009-04-27T16:37:00.007+08:00

/Wish she never looked at me that way.

Eh hey!
Ok I'm guilty as charged ):
I'm like blogging and facebooking and wasting my time when I'm totally suppose to be:
1. studying for EL essay writing test tomorrow.
2. studying for E-lit humour+impression/feelings test tomorrow.
3. doing my math homework. (which, undoubtly, hasn't been completed after, sayy... 24 hours?)
4. doing my physics worksheet.

Ok I'm so bloody tired since I slept at an unearthly time of 1.20am yesterday, trying desperately to complete my math but coming to a huge failure?
On account that, I gave up doing.
But still. THANKS, ZF & EDWIN for like helping me A LOT with math, and staying up till so late with me :/

Which reminds me, I haven't forgotten actually:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZFENG (:

Hehh, smartass. Goshh, cann stand you! Lol.
Thanks a lot for helping me so much yesterdayyyyy.
(Hint: this isn't the first thanks anymore. HAHAHAH!)

So yeah anyway, I realised how much I'm digusted by people who's super obsessed over weight matters.
I'm serious.
Especially like, how can someone stuff a finger down her throat to throw up?!
Ew much. How disturbing is that...
What's the deal with the "You know how many calories that is?!" and the "I'm so losing weight.."
Like, wth?!
I'm serious about being disgusted ._.
Ok, random much, but yeah.

Haha, oh and you know what.
Queer, but yes, I MISS TRAINING.
I feel weird when I don't go for training D:
Somehow, I just can't wait for training to resume again.
Though I wish homework load would reduce a little so that I have more time :/

Ok, which reminds me, I better crash my homework.
Or it might be lights out at 1am again tonight ):

rae.

TAGG;
Jiaen; Heyyooo (: Link me yo! I linked you (:
Vanessa; Haha exactlyyyy.
Sarah; SARAHHHH! Lol.
Mel; Thanks (:
jtwong; Hahahah. Seriously?! Lol, I have no idea. Lol. They just started giving them out. Lol.
Rebecca; Thanks (:
Passerby; Thanks. Haha, sorry, but no. I don't really give my msn out to people I don't know.
I SAY; Haha, ok ok. But you're like sec 3 too right?

/Burning with you.

2009-04-26T16:50:00.003+08:00

/Burning with you.

You know, sometimes I just don't understand.
Like, I don't understand everything.
Screw it.
And you know, unconvering secrets arent actually that bad you know.
But I don't know why, but I just seem to hate some people more.
What the heck, I mean, who is she to judge me man.
She doesn't even know me half as much as Chantel knows me.
And Chantel's like only my new best friend from this year..
And puh-lease. She think no one knows, but it was so darn obvious..
Who was she trying to kiddd?

You know, I'm so totally pissed or whatever you call it.
Because it's plain u-n-f-a-i-r.
Hahh, because she can do it, so can I.
Try me, biaaatch.

rae.

/I can gladly confess.

2009-04-24T20:42:00.002+08:00

/I can gladly confess.

Hehhh! This is totally awesome (:
After like 10days of imense competition and all, Track Nationals is finally over (:
B div got like 2nd and C div got like Champions babehhh!
How totally awesome is that!

So yeahh we took photos at the forum in school before leaving.

Oh and like, we were playing with our hair and tying french braids. LOL.
HL milk was super super poor thing. Lol.
Everyone was like bugging her to tie for them. Lol.
And I was sorta helping. HAHAHA.

So yeah, at cck stadium, I don't know why, but like people seem to see me but I don't see them ._.
Edwin refused to tell me where he is, exactly.
Zf saw me but decided not to say hi to me, to save me like from embarrassement -.-
And like random people from PSC saed hi to me when I don't even know them. (or in this case, remember them)
Apparently, someone called me Cheryl -.-
But yeah whateverrr.

So yeahh, everyoe was very very happy after they annonced the results!
Ruth and idk who else got super emotional. Lol.
Everyone was like damn happy luhhhh.

Lol, then we did the "gimme sexyyyy" thing. ROFL!

Ok so like the team went back to school.
Then they cab to thompson plaza to crash swensens, while I retreated home to my Chemistry notes.
I wanted to go luh, but eventually, I decided I should go home to mug for my chemistry test instead.
Or I'm so gonna die.
But yeah, I think today's Chem test wasn't that bad.
And HOPEFULLY, my results won't be that bad either ._.

SO YES, I RAN MY 6 ROUNDS TODAY...
Don't you find it rad how a mere 10mins odd seemed like FOREVER when you're running,
But yet if you say the Earth is gonna perish in 20years time, it seems like a too short time to do anything?
Ok sounds dumb.
But yes, we got that info from physic lesson. Lol.
So yeah, I had like major stomache again ):
It's so unfair how like, every gotta suffer for 2.4km run..
And I have to suffer the run AND the remaining 30min odd after that, from migraine and stomache -.-
Sheesh.
I'm glad (or not), that this is our one and only mock run...
Because I don't think I can take any more of these.
But then again, I still wanna run more (on my free time, NOT on track).
Since like we won't have any more practice for PE till our actual napfa ):

Blahh. So yeahh my voice is super sexy now yo!
I sound like miley cyrus! Hahahah!
Because my oice is super deep. Lol.
From screaming too much yesterday at the track finals. Lol.

Haha ok anyway, I'm so dead for logarithm assignment ):
Haven't done, but it's like super super long...

/Don't forget.

2009-04-22T20:37:00.002+08:00

/Don't forget.

Hahh. So I haven't been bothered to blog muchhh :/
Gahh, it's dyingggg yo!
Ok so yeahhh, went to Chantel's house todayyyy :D
Hehh, played tennis (:
Ok technically, we weren't exactly playing. Lol.
Like just teaching and trying to keep a rally? Lol.
Cause chantel bay can't play righhhht!
Hahahah.
So then we were like talking alot alot alot alot.
Hahaha. Gossip gossips.
Ok not really. More like just "so how's things goinggg" ;)
Hahahha.
So then after tennis, we bought ice creammmm.
And then we waddle around in the pooool. HAHAH.
Then like I went home at 5.30pm.

Goshh, I'm so flunking Chemistry and Physics ._.
Haven't really exactly study for like Chem luhhh :/
Arghhh, and like test is on Friday D:
Shit, which reminds me, I SO DO NOT WANNA RUN OUR 6 ROUNDS ):
SHEEEEEEZT.
Arghhhhh.

Blahh, whatever.
So tomorrow, we're going down to choa chu kang to support the Track finals (:
GO SN! DOUBLE GOLD (:

rae.

/Slip through the pain.

2009-04-17T22:01:00.004+08:00

/Slip through the pain.

YAYYYYYY.
R gymers rocked (:
They totally owned the whole competition (:
Let's just say like, the Primary section got like ALL 3rd to 1st position for like about 4 different categories?!
Wow-nessss.
Hahaha. So yeah, after that took mrt to Bishan.
Then actually, saw my friend there.
Went shopping, meanwhile.
I ended up like only buying 1 cardigan after so long -.-
Haha, at Fox's sale.
Ok, so I spent money, YET AGAIN ):
Almost bought this like top too, for like $13.
But didn't.
I think I was like short of 3 bucks or something anyway.
I think? Haha.

So yeahhh, walked around?
Then went to buy bubble tea.
Which was like, not very nice?
Not sweeeet ):
So yeahh, I was actually full after that.
So I went home and ate like, little, for dinner. Hahah.

Okayy, so yeahh, I should totally start on my connexio article now ):
Shucks :/

rae.

TAGS!
Becky; Hahhh! We didn't go smell it UP CLOSE. But we could totally smell it already. Stinks -.-
Zf; Haha, thanks I guess. And no, I didn't recognise you, hahahha. Sorry. Lol.
Chantel; Hahaha yes (: Those are cute aren't they :D
Maryanne; Haha, thanks (:
jtwong; Hahah, thanks thanks! Love ya babe (:
Mel; Oh yeah. True. Uhh, lucky we didn't get strike? LOL.
Nicole; Haha. Okay okay. Yeahh, you should totally go :D Super fun! Love it ttm!
jtwong; lol.. Hi -.-
Sarah; Thanks (: Love it too!
Jasmine; Oh sureee!
Felicia; Hehh sorry. Haven't exactly tagged in your blog. Haha.
I SAY; Haha okay okay. Chill luh, I'm not that mean right! Why would you be like afraid to talk to me or something, in real life! LOL!

/Something hands it on.

2009-04-15T20:39:00.004+08:00

/Something hands it on.

Ok so like I haven't had time to blog these few days.
But yeah, 12 April.

I was totally like crazy or something.
So we all went for SLP again.
This time, 9am to 7pm...
And like, I have nationals the next day.
So I did my warm up during SLP. Lol ._.
Haha. Ok I was seriously crazy..

And yeah, Chantel, Ade and I camwhored (:
Lolll.

We were totally doing ths Charlies Angels thing. LOL.

Hmm, then did some random shots.

AND JUMP SHOTS :D
Hahh, but mine turned out really awkward ):
CHANTEL'S ONE WAS SUPER NICE CAN!
Thanks to my great photographyyy :D
Hahh, plus her proffessional and expert way of jumping -.-

Then sorta went down to the water area. Haha.

So thennn, nothing much.
Did homework on alot of the time, sorta slack.
Then did like our job was sorta like ushering and attracting people to our event thingy.
Hahah, there was alot of caucasians tourists (:
SUPER friendly!

Hah, so yeahh.

Then 13 April.
Nationals..
I slept like 9.30pm the night before..
Woke up at 5.40am?
You wouldn't believe how scared and nervous I was...
But yeahhh, first, I didn't know the qualifying was 4.1m, until I was at the pit ready to jump...
Ok, before competition, I was totally telling myself the things that I have to think of to not be so pessimistic.
But at that point of time, all I could think of, was "this is just a training. its just a training. its just a training..", like trying to calm myself down.

So then I told myself to finish it once and for all, in 1 shot, and not waste energy.
So I ran. And I jumped.
I stood up. Walked away. Turned back to look.
And guess what..
I totally held my breath..
Because my marking was like EXACTLY at the 4.1m marking.
So I was totally praying for it not to be like 4.09m or something when they measured.
Then they raised the white flag. I qualified.
Goshh ._.
Miss chan: Ok good. Good job.. SEE! You can do it one right.

Then I couldn't contain it any longer and I cried ._.
And I was like: But I'm very scared..
Miss chan: SCARED WHAT!

Wth luh..
So then me and Lim Shuen went to buy lunch and went back to her Aunt's house.
Then we slept for like an hour and left for finals again.

Ok, let's just say I screwed my first 2 jumps...
And my last jump wasn't that good either.
I did like a 4.27m.
Broke my pb, but wasn't the best that could be done.
Because I was pretty sure I did a jump further than that for my trail jump ):
And like, I'm actually sorta surprised that I'm the 19th and not he last, which is 24th D:

Ok but yeah, I'm at major disadvantage for being sec 3 in b div and also for only taking my first real long jump in sec 2..
Since lik I was never in track before I came to st nic -.-

So yeahh.
And 14th April,
we didn't win anything for Elementz.
Aww mann ):
But yeah, next year man!
Anyway, majorly traumatizing experience...
And ENCOUNTER -.-
So you guys can stop laughing at me luhhhh!

Ok, so tomorrow, Elementz again.
Gahh, knee hurts...
And running 5 rounds on friday seems really demoralizing to me ._.

rae.

/It's already in you.

2009-04-12T20:55:00.003+08:00

/It's already in you.

TRACK NATIONALS LONG

JUMP IS TOMORROW.

OMGGGGGG.
Ok, I refuse to believe I'm gonna die ok.

I CAN DO ITTTT.
COME ONNNN!
I DID IT BEFORE LAST YEAR RIGHT!

COME ONNNNNN! BELIEVE!

rae.

/It's all about how things went wrong.

2009-04-11T22:16:00.005+08:00

/It's all about how things went wrong.

My days have been good/happy/cranky but I swear all of us are going mad...
Blahh ok whatever.

Went to science centre in the morning with my class.
Had this really cool protein extraction and looking at it glow in UV light.
Then went for lunch, and were late for Go Red For Women Campaign's volunteery work :/

So, me and Bay took mrt there and like freakkin cab to Flyers with Rongyu because we were late -.-

Today's GRFW has been uhhhh, UNDESRIBABLY boring ._.
Ok, we practically did nothing there.
Except camwhored.
We seriously didn't really help at all till like the last 10min..
Because it was like raining the whole day...

Oh yes, I am guilty.
I ate macs for lunch.
WHEN COMPETITION'S SO NEAR.
I'm totally going to hell ):
Ok, though I kept myself to a limit.
I only ate the spicy wrap snack and apple pie.

Ok and I drank soya bean milk while GRFW-ing.
Straight from a carton.
I. Drank. The. Whole. Carton.
ALL BY MYSELF.
Which actually made me majorly bloated.

Ok so yeah then walked to Esplanade, then to City Hall mrt with Bay.
Took mrt and reached home near 8pm -.-

So yes, me and Chantel were so bored that we started going around, camwhoring. Lol..
Then we went back.
After that, it rained damn heavily.
And Chantel started being like major weirdo and want it to rain heavier so that we can go out in the rain in ponchos.

Like, go out in the ran to camwhoreee. HAHA.
Damn fun :D
So she dragged me along into the rain, with our pink ponchos (which bay was totally spazzing over. lol)
I swear, if I get sick (BEFORE COMPETITION), you are totally to blame -.-

GRFW again tomorrow.
like 9am to sayyy, I think 7pm?! ._.

Camwhores with Bay

rae.

/I'm sinking to the bottom of everything.

2009-04-11T00:51:00.003+08:00

/I'm sinking to the bottom of everything.

I just wished I was a step earlier.
So then, these tears wouldn't be around.

Let the rain come down,
And wash it all away.
Let the fever come,
So that I don't ever have to get out of bed.

I'm reaching for the life within me.
Sometimes I just feel like falling into the ocean.

rae.

/Caught by surprise, frozen by fear

2009-04-09T21:06:00.005+08:00

/Caught by surprise,
frozen by fear.

Gahh, haven't been bloggin much lately ):
Been like awfully busy.
Sheezt.
Hah anyway, you look awesome on that tvc Aaron (:
I'm sooooo jealous. Lol.

Okayy, so yeah.
Been like trying to be as hardworking as possible ):
And like, how awesome, I'm like loaded with homework for my holiday + weekend (or not) -.-

So anywayyy, I went to like look for birthday present for my mom, and like sorta went shopping at the same time, with sissy.
Apparently, I spent alot of money D:
Ok, not exactly.
I bought like this skort for $27.50 from OP.
It's like 31% off for like customer appreciation day or something. HAHAHA.
So like, it was suppose to be $39.90.
Soooo, then I bought a present for my friend, I bought paper dividers for my file, and I bought a skort.

And you know what' the mavellous thing?
Since last Saturday's studying at library, to Owen's outing to today, I've spent like $82 odd ._.
How awesome huh?

Oh and sissy was totally saying how the newspaper's horoscope thing was pretty darn accurate :/
Like how it said Cancer would have some "financial problems" and will spend alot of money. But because this month, I'm cheeful. So I'll forget about it after a while.
Haha.
Which I guess, is totally true :O

Blahh, okay soooo...
Training at Gombak tomorrow morning.
COMPETITION ON 13th APRIL, MONDAY ._.

GO SAINT NICKS! Double gold.

rae.

/Cause it's like insomnia

2009-04-06T20:52:00.004+08:00

/Cause it's like insomnia

OWENS rock (:
Yesterday's owen's outing was totally awesomeee (:
I'm really glad I went.

So yes, met Zun, Sabrina and Nick at Kallang MRT first.
Took bus to Kallang Leisure Park.
Took a look at the movies available first.
I totally wanted reborn (:
So the choices we were voting for, was Unborn and 12 Rounds.
Texted Eva and Grace to get their vote (: Hahah.

Went to Nihon Mura for lunch.
Spent like about 12 bucks?
But Zun paid the bill first, and he was like "you can just pay me 10."
Lol...

Then after lunch, we went to Arcade. Lol.
Played this throw ball game.
Hahah, damn retarded and funny.
Then played the table hockey thing or something?
And then the basketball shooting game. Lol.
Then Sab and Nick played the motor racing game.
Eva came.

Treated us to donuts (:
Thanks babe (:
Hehh.
Then we went to buy tickets.
Bought reborn in the end! Hahah.

Sab was totally protesting against watching that. Rofl.
Ok, although I was the one who suggested that movie, I didn't say I'm not scared ok! D:
Hahah.
I just like the thrill and excitement of watching horror with friends. Hahah.
DAMN FUN :D
So anyway, zun went to give Grace the ticket so that she can come in.
Ok, so actually, the whole cinema only had like maybe 5 other people other than us.
Me and Sab were gripping onto each other's hand from the start of the movie, to the end. Lol!
Sab was flat out hilariousss. HAHAHA.
She kept chanting "It's just a movie, it's just a movie, it's just a movie".
Ok, I think other than her, I was probably the one who screamed the most ._.

So after the movie, we were like discussing it.
Then Grace went "Sab, did you even watch the movie at all..."
Then she said no. LOL!
Which actually, was expected. LOL!
Because she had her jacket's hood over her face like 98% of the time. ROFL!

So then we went ice skating.
Haha, OMG I'm like major loser...
Nick was the one who kept falling.
And I was like the second...
Zun was totally pro at it -.-
So we got him to be the photographer.
Hah, which reminds me, I almost lost my camera.
Ok, actually I did.
Then they announced it over the loud speaker that they found a camera. LOL...
LUCKILYYY D:

After that, we wanted to race.
Then Nick hit me by accident, then I fell.
Then somehow, he fell after I did. Lol -.-

Oh and wow, awesome...
I got cut by my own blades, during our last few minutes of skating, when I fell -.-
So now the cut is sorta sore and it hurts when I press on it :/

Ok, so yeah.
I had to like rush home immediately after that.
Cause my parents want me home ):
So left abruptly after skating...

Went for ballet after that.
That's probably about it?

Haha, I love love love Owens's outingggg!
There would definitely be a second one babehhh!
June, definitely.
Hopefully this time, Jacky can come (:

OWENS ♥

rae.

/Baby I can see your truth.

2009-04-04T22:16:00.003+08:00

/Baby I can see your truth.

Just came back from track intensive camp today.
Ok, I'll like dead tired.
But I still went to the library to study with my friend.
Apparently, I realised my brain wasn't functioning today...
So I barely got anything done in like 2h...
Just 2 math questions and a little of SAIL -.-

Then went for dinner with my friend.
Pasta mania.
Ok, fine I will never be the first to finish eating -.-
Because I was like, the LAST to finish my meals during track camp for dinner AND lunch D:
And finished last at pasta mania too -.-

Goshhh, read this:
Given a rectangle with a longer side, x, and a shorter side, y, the following equation shows how the aspect ratio of a rectangle compares to that of a half rectangle: x/y = y(x/2) which reduces to x/y = √2 or an aspect ratio of 1 : √2

How much of that did you understand?
Because coolness. That's part of my SAIL task -.-

Out with Owens tomorrow! ♥
This is awfully coooool.
Ice skating + movies.
Gotta finish my homework first. Blahhh.

rae.

2009-04-02T20:40:00.008+08:00

To: My Best Friend

WUAN TING,
I need you. Desperately.
It's an emergency ):
I don't know what to do without you!

From: Rachel Wong

Tell my why.

2009-04-02T17:15:00.005+08:00

/Tell me why.

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Hot n Cold (Katy Perry)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Gotta be somebody (Nickelback)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Get back (Demi Lovato)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Next plane home (Daniel Powter)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Kelsey (Metro Station) - No link? Lol.

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Crazy (Simple Plan) - OOOOKAYY, true I think? :O

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Sunday Best (Augustana)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
1 2 3 4 (Plain White Ts)

WHAT IS 2+2?
Discover (Elliot Minor) - Lol, that's funny, go discover the answer. LOL!

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Save You (Simple Plan) - Uhh, weird?

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Flipside (The Click Five)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
That Thing You Do (The Wonders)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Again (Faber Drive)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Right round (Flo Rida) - Hmm, true I think? Lol.

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
White horse (Taylor Swift)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Why (Secondhand erenade) - Whatttt.

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Cheated on me (Gavin DeGraw) - What a life, dying after being cheated on?!

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Almost (Bowling for soup)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
You make it real (James Morisson)

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
You belong with me (Taylor Swift) - Excuse me, who said being with me is the wrost thing that could happen! AHEM.

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
The Show (Lenka) - What, die in a show? Lol. Right, maybe when acting? (if I actually start acting on tv someday. Lol)

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Woah oh (Forever the Sickest Kids) - No sense -.-

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Breakaway (Kelly Clarkson) - LOL? -.-

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Monsoon (tokio hotel)

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Love Story (Taylor Swift) - Doesn't that explain it all (:

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
I'd lie (Taylor Swift) - Maybe beig lied to? :/

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
The best day (Taylor Swift) - Uhmm, a little no link?

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Money Honey (State of Shock)

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
A little too not over you (David Archuleta) - OMG OMG OMG.

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Tell me why (Taylor Swift) - Sort of matches (:

/Leave it on the line.

2009-04-02T15:41:00.006+08:00

/Leave it on the line.

So I shall start by saying Happy (or not) late April Fools Day.
Ok, I'm totally not gonna mention bout my day yesterday.
I totally got P-W-N-E-D.
Geez...
I fell for like idk how many tricks -.-

Today
Ok, the stupidest things just happened today.
So after school I went to Macs with Jamie.
She didn't have cash.
So she intended to pay with her ezlink since I didn't have enough to lend her.
I only have like $6 with me then.
So ok we went.
Then she ordered.
But the person said new ezlink cards can't be used yet.
So I was like oh ok nevermind, I'll pay first.
Then after I paid, I realised that I wouldn't have enough for myself. Lol..
Freaking hilarious..
So like after that, I was like left with $1++.
And Jamie had a few coins.
So we collated everything together.
And just nice, I had $1.90.
So I bought a cheese burger. Lol.
And had 5cents left. LOOOL.

After macs, we went to the 136 queue.
Then, we waited for a while.
& after that, I wanted to throw something, but I know amk hub has like VERY little dustbins.
So I decided ok, I'll make a quick one.
I went out and look around, but couldn't find any bins.
I looked back.
I saw a bus, then I saw jamie standing first and alone in the queue.
So I was like SHUCKS, then ran back.
And at that time, the bus just closed the door, we stood outside the door of the bus, but obviously the uncle didn't see us because he was looking the other side.
So thennn... He left -.-
So we waited for the next bus.

And the ridiculous thing is, we missed the bus and I came back to the queue, still holding my rubbish -.-
GOSHHH.
How retarded is that..

Ok, so Jamie's at my house now.
I'm gonna go study/do my homework ):
I feel really really sian diao todayyyy.
Shiatttt.
Fagganaggottttt.

Oh yes and, Chantel, clones to the maxxx!
This is so twinish freakkyy...

PS - we have the exact same scar on the exact same place (:

rae.

TAGREPLIES
I SAY; Haha yeah great (: & thanks (: Haha, gosh I think I've been "talking" to you for a while already, but I still have no idea who you are :/ Clue clue? At least tell me if like, if we're in the same class for any lessons, or like what's the first letter of your name or something?
Jtwong; Yeah thanks -.- Rub it in girl, rub it in...
Sarah; YAHHH, thanks man. Excuse me, I'm not that kinda person ok. -.- & no, you are NOT innocent AT ALL -.-

/So you dont have to.

2009-03-30T22:32:00.003+08:00

/So you dont have to.

Ok apparently, I'm starting to enter into the emo world D:
I was like melancholy today.
Real rad.
Ok, am I not always melancholy -.-
My juniors were totally asking why I'm so moody today.
IDKK LAHH D:
Just feel super super super sian diao and tired..

Anyway I keep thinking Vanessa Tan and Sarah Chew are look-a-likes. Haha...
Oh which reminds me.
AHEM sarah chew...
You suck lah. Why would I go meet him or no reason -.-
Can you not scandalise me...
And like, PLEASE don't think wrong -.-
Suck luh youuuu...

& how awesome.
I've been doing Matrices for like the past 2h+
You know, I'm not gonna deny it,
But I'm really starting to sorta panic for O levels D:
I mean, yeah well.
Anyone would, IF your grades are like mine.
Gosh..
That's why I've suddenly like sorta turned into a muggertoad.
I made a study plan for myself.
Hopefully, I'll keep to that :/

Gahhh, 2k run every morning.
Ok, not really.
Technically, I'm running everyday except monda (including morning jog & PE) :D
Hahah.
Omggg. I'm gonna freak out for nationals D:
Run run run. I need to like focus :/

rae.

TAGS
sarah; haha great. Hmm, I hope I will, SOON.
Wuanting; Haha. Yes, major Dilemmia D: & hmm, you know, for some weird reason, I actually think you can help. Goshh. I'll tell you soooon.
Wuanting; Haha. Quite a few people said that. Just wanna try something new(:
Damian; Okayy awesome (: great!
Mok; hellooo (:
I SAY; Okayy, solved I think?
Jtwong; why don't I see that problem? :O But yeah, should be fine now?
Wuanting; YAHHH. You wait -.- You sure die. NEXT TIME.
Nisha; Hello NISHAOWENS :D Hahah, owens outinggg! Can't wait babeh!
Wuanting; Right right... A friend who likes and a friend who looks like is totally different k! -.-
Sarah C.; Hello (:

/Piece them together; depict

2009-03-29T22:12:00.006+08:00

/Piece them together;
depict.

You know, I think it's more than just being weird.
I don't know what's going on. I don't know what's going on in my head.
What the heck was I thinking man!
Arghh goshhh.

You know what, I don't know what's anyone thinking.
Maybe I was right.
Then again, maybe I wasn't.

I'm seriously stuck.
I need to figure things out.
& can't unless someone helps me.
But, I think there's only that one person who can help.

I'm, what do you call it - afraid?
No not really.
Mannn, I'm not gonna deny that you're a good mollifier.
You have no idea.
Heck, what's the word to describe how I'm feelinggg.
Exacerbate?
Abnormal, but yes I think a little.
Reticent.
Totally. Yes, that's the word..

Arghh godd I'm just stuck.

Damn, I'm majorly stuck.
I'm totally being way stupid.
Arghhh, I can't think straighhht D:
Mann, you have nooooo idea!
Oh, and you wouldn't ever believe me if I told you who's causing this.
No harm done if you don't know.
Daffy isn't it.

Geez, am I suppose to be a little more confident and trust my instincts?
Darnn, I seriously can't figure out what is the thing that I'm suppose to get.
I hope you get the message.
But then again, I hope you don't.

rae.

/But watching stars, for the best.

2009-03-29T17:53:00.002+08:00

/But watching stars,
for the best.

Gahh, woke up late today ):
At least there was aircon. So it wasn't that bad.
No migraine (:
Hehh. So apparently, I only did 3 things today.
1. eat.
2. sms.
3. DO HOMEWORK.

UNTIL NOW. omg..
I wanna die already cannn D:
So far, I have only managed to finish some...

Anddd, hardcore dance class later..
7.30pm to 9.30pm
So I totally have to finish doing it before I go out. D:

To do list
~~1. Physics Worksheet (velocity-time graph)~~
2. Math Matrice Worksheet.
~~3. Geography notes~~
~~4. Comprehension Book (page 102 - 104)~~
5. Print Physics notes

rae.

/That's the only.

2009-03-29T12:20:00.003+08:00

/That's the only.

Yesterday was a hot hot night.
Earth Hour, totally coool.
Had it at jt's house.
We turned off the lights in the whole house, except the one in the living area.
Because the adults were playing mahjong -.-
So, me and jt took that time to do our work.
Hmm, since I went to library with Jam and Daph before that, I manged to finish writing all my geography notes yesterday (:
Haha, oh yeahh and met Des on the bus yesterday too.
Hmm yeah, sooooo... Nothing much yesterday.

Went to jt's house, like I said.
Celebrated tung's birthday (:
Haha, happy fourth birthday (:
Heh.
Blah, I think I ate like, ALOT yesterday.
Felt really uhh full or something the whole of yesterday ):
Sheesh, I'm totally gonna get fat -.-

Hah, and like watched these videos with jt.
HAHAHHA, damn freakkin funny!
Totally laughed my ass off. Lol lol.

Haha, so yeah, reached home at like about 1.45am.
Slept in aircon.
It was really really really hot.

rae.

/Over the edge and just breathless.

2009-03-28T00:00:00.002+08:00

/Over the edge and just breathless.

No training tomorrow.
Somehow I'm pretty sad about that. WOW much?
Ok, soooo... Studying at amk library with Jamie and Daphne tomorrow instead.
Thennn jt's house tomorrow ♥
I need to start mugging and stop using computer.
O.M.G.

& today. was. the. suckiest. day. EVER.
I can seriously go kill myself already.

rae.

/A little of both,

2009-03-25T23:54:00.003+08:00

/A little of both,

Haha, I should say today's a pretty happy day?
Went to support the Mid-d's for their cross country.
C div came in 1st, B div came in 5th.
It's ok! GOOD JOB GUYS (:
YOU DID GREAT KAY!
Don't cry yeah? (:

Ok so yeahhh, met Des and Zun (:
Haha, talked kinda long I guess?
Hmm didn't see zf though, too bad...

Oh, and apparently, there were alot of "paparazzis" -.-
Goshh...

Ok then like, JiaEn was totally hilarious on the bus luh.

Hah, and ok, I'm just gonna say, ALOT of things happened today.
I don't think my heart can take any more surprises -.-

Oh, and how great, almost 50 smses today.
My bill is skyrocketing babehh.
So so awesome right ._.

rae.

/I'll get it high.

2009-03-24T22:33:00.003+08:00

/I'll get it high.

You know what, chantel?
I need to unscandalise myself.
SERIOUSLY.
Like, before I get into any deep shit :/

Goshh, and wuanting, you're still gonna die when I see you (glaressss -.-)

& tomorrow, going down to bedok to support the mid-d (:
Hehh, can't wait for tomorrow.
Hahahha, right right? (:

rae.

/This road stretching far out.

2009-03-19T20:44:00.012+08:00

/This road stretching far out.

Day 1.

PSC. Totally. Rocked (:

Hahh, Our group was awesome.
I'm still angry with ET for jinxing me, dammit -.-

Owens Facil: Zun & Nandita
Owens Members: Rachel, Sabrina, Nisha, Grace, Eva, Nick, Jacky, (edwin, nat)

Ok so, the convention started out with icebreaker games.
I'm in the group, Owens :)
ROCKKK!

So then, we had talks and all.
Pretty good you know.
Useful, and like, I think it's good knowledge.

Thenn, after that we started the orientation.
It was super super super super fun (:
I love love love love love it man :D
THANKS EXCOs and FACILS FOR EVERYTHING!

Hehh, so we had the first game, which is the swimming in the field game.
Transporting as much water as possible from 1 pail to the other, without using hands. Lol.
So guys, took out their shirt.
Girls, used socks. Lol.
And the front of our shirt. Rofl.

Thenn, played another game where we have 4 task.

1. Shampoo our hair and take a picture

2. Advertise milk. (we did milk moustache)
Didn't really show though. Because we were wet...

3. 5 people were murdered. So we have to spread ketchup on us to seem bloody.

4. A scenario where the guys are gay. So we have to put make up for them.

Then after that we played this game called marathon.
We had to lick the polo sweets off this plate of uhh.
Flour + dye + chocolate syrup + polo sweet -.-
And there was the suction thingy because of the hole in the middle of the sweet..
So I coudn't get it up..

Second part of the game was to get a blindfolded person to find the letters to make the word "peer support".

Third part was that each group was given 2 big tablespoon of peanut butter to finish.
Goshh, the peanut butter was totally gagging me...
And like, luckily I was like uh, the first to eat the thing..
Because everyone was LICKING the spoon.
INCLUDING guys -.-

(pic)
Then next game, we played silent captain's ball in the hallll (:
Hehh, super fun!
No one was allowed to talk, or make any noise. lol.
If you do, you'll be out of the game for a minute.

(pic)
After that

Then after that we all gathered, and we had this debrief.
Took photos with the candle PSC thing.

Then went back to auditorium after that.
Took some photos.
Had some talks and stuff.
Then did some discussion.

Took bus back with Lizzy, Yuenping and Mok after that.

Day 2.
Went for training in the morning.
Left early for PSC.
I was already damn tired and sweaty...
Left at 9.45am, and guess what...
I reached at freakkin 11.30am.
Because I had to alight the first 76 at amk hub to top up my ezlink card.
Then the second 76 took like a gazillion years to get to vs, which is the last of the last stop -.-
It was 50 odd stops from st nic to vs. WOW...
And the second 76 was majorly crawling...

Reached there, did some discussion with sn.
Missed a lot of stuff in the morning ):
Haha, zun had this volleyball friendly with another school too.
So like, he came late.
Then changed out of my sweaty pe shirt to my water games shirt (:
Hehhh, HOT PINKKK! ♥
So coincidentally all the girls were wearing red/pink that day (:
But yeah, this Theophileus guy never turned up.
And edwin + nat were MIA too.
So we only had 7 people. 5 girls 2 boys. Lol.

After that, we played this super super fun waterbomb game (:
After that, we still had alot of extra water bombs left.
So we had a mass water bomb fight. Lol.
We were like bombing the facils and ok, and EVERYONE else.
It was seriously very very very very fun.

Took a group photo after that.
Hahah. I got drenched inside out.
The shirt was totally sticking to my skin after that. Lol.

And after we finished clearing up the plastic bags, zun came back from friendly match. lol.
SADDD.
Then we had to sit down and close our eyes and do this survey thingy where they asked questions.
After that, when they said FINALE!, then turned on the hose and "showered" us. Lol.
Then a pail of water came over us. Lol.

Haaaa, then we had this plot to hug zun since he was so dry and we're all so wet.
Hahhaah.

So we shouted ZUN! Then ran towards him and surrounded him.
Thenn, Nick threw a pail of water him. Lol.

After that, we went for lunch in our wet clothes. Lol -.-

After that, changed into our new PSC shirts + uniform (:
Thenn, we had a briefing for From The Inside Out (FTIO).
It's a thing whereby we have to start a campaign and create a platform for others to start Peer supporting and stuff.

Then we started making our notes and messages and board.
Our location was parkway parade.
So we left and took bus there.

Started out campaigne (:
It was super super fun.
& I would say, the people weren't as unfriendly or cold as I thought they'd be (:
A lot of them were quite interested and warm to us in fact (:
They were supposed to write a short note about LOVEEE and either give it to their love ones, or stick it on jacky :D
And Jacky was totally stuck full of notes (:

But after a while, we got chased away from the region around parkway.
Because it was an owned land, so we were supposed to have got approval from the management before doing any campaign and all.
Yeah well, the security guard was really nice about it though (:
He even apologised to us.
Luckily, we were almost finished with our notes already.
So we ended up taking photos instead. Lol.

Thenn, we went for dinner after that.
Let's just say, I take eons to eat.
& Zun said I looked like I was forcing myself to eat.
Which, technically, I was. Lol.
We had like, VERY little time to eat. That's why.. :/
Then we were veh veh late already ._.
But SOMEONE still wanted to but bubbletea. Lol.
Ok, alot of them in fact. Lol..
And like, so we ended up like 10 or 15min late when re reached canteen again.

After that, we did this reflection for FTIO.
It was awesomeeee (:

After that we went back to the auditorium.
We had this concert after that, whereby everyone has to put up a skit.
Ours somewhat didn't come out as expected.
Because there was a last minute switch from Script 1 to Script 2.
So it was unrehearsed ._.
Then other groups did theirs.
Then the Facils did 1 too (:
Hahah. Cuteee.

This whole thing was supposed to end at like 9.30pm.
But it dragged past 10.30pm.
Haha, I don't mind though (:
After that, Owens went to canteen to exchange letters and all.
Ok, only Zun + Nan's one, and Sabrina's one.
I didn't write any ):
SORRYYYY GUYS!
Anyway, thanks zun, for the tolberones (:

Then, hahahhh, stopped benjamin from leaving without me. Hahah.
So yeah, I ended up taking bus with Benjamin, Jacky and Jun Rong.
Only "got to know" Jun rong on the bus. Lol.
Turned out that the world is freakkin small.
He knew this friend I know. Lol.
And like, we both play tennis, and both alighted at the same stop -.-

Reached home at like blardy 11.45pm.
Showered and slept soon after that.
I was really really tired already.

PSC was awesome funnn.
I love everyone there!
I miss PSC.
Owen's outing soon. Promise (:
LET'S GO OWENS! It's not a label, it' a promise ♥

Rachel Owens Wong.

/As her words seep in.

2009-03-18T14:00:00.007+08:00

/As her words seep in.

Hahh, so yesterday, I went to yanyi's house to play tennis with her and nerissa (:
Hahah.
I almost didnt go...
Because it started raining damn heavily, and I got stranded at the bus stop -.-
So after the rain became a drizzle, I crossed the road and took the bus to yanyi's house.

Thenn, we waited for the rain to stop.
Played around for a while.

Then went down to play tennis.
WTH. It was super super super hot after that.
And like, I got tanner. Lol...

After tennis, we were all super hot.
We wanted to like, swim, but we didn't have our swimsuits.
Hahha, then I suggested to remove our shoes and waddle around the shallow pool. HAHAH.

Played around there, super cooling (:
& we camwhored like mad. Rofl.

Haha, after that, we went back upstairs, anddd washed up a little.
Then I went home. Haha.

Super tired...
So I fell asleep after lunch, and was late for dance class, for 10min ._.
& felt so drained out during tuition after that.

Today,
Training.
Supaa dupaa dupaa hot..
Joni and jamie are at my house (:
Clara couldn't make it ):
Blahh, I'm supposed to be doing homework.
Sooo, bye :/

rae.

/There's no end deep inside.

2009-03-16T13:28:00.005+08:00

/There's no end deep inside.

Training todayy.
Blahh, I'm so ready to kill myself for nationals.
I can totally forget about getting whatever top 8 this year ):
Though, I never did get it last year in the first place.
But still...
Blahhhh.
I. Need. To. Get. Over. My. Mental. Block.
I need to scream.
Who's gonna scream with me to get the pressure off :/
I need someone to do it with my before I jump, for nationals too.

Someone, tell me how I can get over my mental hurdle ._.
Blahh.

Ok, I just finished watching Prom Night 2008 on the computer.
Super scary. I watched it alone. Lol.
Hahh, wanted to watch with Edwin.
But he went for his council camp -.-
& obviously, I'm not gonna wait for him till wednesday night. Lol.
Watched 4bia with him yesterday.
Hahh, got the blardy shock of my life while using earpiece.
His idea -.-
Hahh, and we tried to watch it at the same time, but he kept lagging -.-

Haha, so yeahh.
TENNIS WITH NER & YANYI TMR!
Yeah babehhh :)
Hehh, can't wait :D
I need to get my mind off track for a while.

rae.

/If only.

2009-03-14T22:05:00.003+08:00

/If only.

I wanna go for IT show tomorrowww
I want a D90, or E80.
Gahh.
But obviously we're not going...

Anyway, today's all comers sucked ._.
I'm officially demoralised.
COME ON MAN.
Who wouldn't be..
On account that, I could have done a zone 3 but I got a zone 2, because I lost balance and fell.
And also, on account that I have, sayyy, 4 juniors who did better than me ._.

Ok, I shall not make myself feel even more demoralised -.-
Gahh, shall go watch movie.

(I wanna go out with my friends.
or at least, I wanna have a family gathering again.)

rae.

/Noise scape.

2009-03-13T18:03:00.008+08:00

/Noise scape.

I wonder how many times can I break before I shatter.
Dammit, why am I bloody crying.
You know, things CANNOT get any better than it is.
Who's gonna save me, from the mess I got (or not) myself into?
I need an escape route.
Desperately.

rae.

TAGS
kent; haha, yeah I guess so. & nahh, I'd rather not get unlimited. I'm gonna control and not become like some sms freak who can't live without handphones.
Jamie; lol -.- loser..
Damian; oh haha. I had to same problem too, idk why. & ok, linked.
Zf; Yeah, I'm most probably going.
I say; Ohh, ok.
Mel; Haha, yeah.
Passing by; Haha, yeah I guess :/

Still alive.

2009-03-12T22:10:00.001+08:00

Yes,
I'm still alive.

rae.

/Impossible to find.

2009-03-10T22:41:00.003+08:00

/Impossible to find.

So today, I did this project.
Which, I had to wash test tubes with rotten fruit juices.
I smelt the grossness.

Then I left school for dance class.
Reached there like 1h early...
& I couldn't resist the temptation and walked 2 stops to Hougang Point to buy a stupid Bubble tea, and walked back.

And then, I realised I left my stockings at home.
So I did ballet in blouse, fbts and ballet shoes.
How awesome.

And then after ballet, I gobbled down some food in 10min and was late for tuition.
And felt like indigestion after that.

Then, I felt so sleepy that I had to get kent to sms me to keep me awake.
And, obviously I'm feeding my phone bill of this month.
I've been sms-ing for like, say, 4hours straight?
Well, not every minute.
But still..

& after that, I ate dinner at like marvellous 10pm..
And showered at like wonderful 10.45pm...
WOWWW -.-
What a day.

/Suddenly I see

2009-03-09T22:03:00.004+08:00

/Suddenly I see.

Suddenly I see, this is what I wanna be.
Suddenly I see why the hell it means so much to me.
But there she is, screwing me.
Maybe she should start shutting her huge mouth.

I'm drowning in the sea of doubts.
My past is haunting me again.
I mean it.
And this time, another thing adds on.
I can't stop dwelling over it.
& I thought I was almost over it.
But you just had to ruin everything.
Now it's all coming back to me.
Did she have to screw me.
& Did you have to remind me...

It's feeling more and more like how the rest were.
How I'm trying to break free and leave it all behind, as it lingers behind, catching up with me.
How I know those were mistakes.
Mistakes that I can never ever change.
Mistakes that are facts. That are imprinted for life.

& now, this is another thing adding on to it.
Another regretted mistake that can never be undone.

"gone through the back, through the past."

rae.

/To come around.

2009-03-07T15:58:00.004+08:00

/To come around.

Ok, I find it kina pointless to blog nowadays :/
Gahh.
Ok, so like apparently, I think I'm despicable ._.
Don't ask why.
But just know, I am.
Ok so like, I think I'm competing for nationals.
Ah crap.
But I seriously need to get over my mental hurdle or I'm so going NOWHERE ._.
Someone, teach me how?
Godd, I'm mad bored right nowwww.
Oh and, Carrennnn. I'm still spazzing over the fact that your family doesn't have a HOUSE phone ._.
& also cellphone -.-
Hahh.
&& Thanks guys....
For your nonsense.
Apparently, now my juniors gave me a nickname or something.
Shi en, for actually saying it first.
Then for Yi Xuan to actually create that nickname, and to tell that to everyone.
And like Janna, Wendy, Celine for calling me that -.-
Hahh, and guess what they called me..
Prettiest senior..
WTH?! -.-
Hahh, it's super retarded can...
Anywayyy, so like, I screwed my term1 -.-
So far I only have like, 2 As?
And miraculously, one of them is chinese, which is A2.
But that one doesnt count, since like, I never get As for chinese...

By the way, is it only me, or does anyone else's internet has a problem too?
There is seriously something wrong with my internet..
It's soooo annoying. Arghh.

Okayyy, I think I'm gonna go bake.
I'm like seriously like, majorly bored.

rae.

TAGr.
Mel; Haha yeahhh. & well, I'll try. Thanks anyway.
(I SAY); Haha okayyyy then. Up to you (: But like, you mean I KNOW you as in, talked to you before? Oh, & like, I got E8 too -.-
Passing by; Oh wellll, sucks luh D: Gahh, failed overall ._.
Jamie; haha, too badd. You just gotta type it out (:
Ner; Haha, are you buying? If you're buying k blade, tell me kay(: Then maybe I'm buying
together(:
Gid; Lol, hello..